JonBoy's blog: "The tears of time"

day after day
i suffer all this pain
and i can feel the darkness sucking up my soul
i try and try
to escape this pain
but it just won’t go away
i learned not to trust
anyone at all
because anytime i do trust someone
and i finally feel free
that person always disapears
my life is a maze
no matter how far i go
or which way i turn
i always find nothing
but a dead end
so day after day
i sit and i wait
hoping that the pain
will go away

The tug of these feelings of nothingness take me to new places. This place, devoid of all warmth, seems to be my new home. Where am I?

I regress into the placid nature inside all of us. My body now rejecting all in it's defense. The eyes growing just a bit older every minute.

I have seen this in others before. I always thought you were so piteful, why don't you try harder.. I understand now..

The ravenous appetite to feel anything, if even just pain, one more time. The lack of feeling now more deadly than the sharpest of razors. Why did you go?

I must know what it is like on the other side.. Can it truely be so bright and chipper as they all say? Does it really matter how I get there anyways?

With shaking hands, I'll make my own path in life. Let me be with you once more, my love. You had my heart till the end, even if that end is too soon.

I finally see what will end this bottomless pit of nothingness, this numb eternity. I can feel you better now. May the world not look on me with evil trespass. 

As my body grows weaker, I now feel more than ever. The numbness gone, I can finally relax. Just let me rest once more before our eternal journey.