ok folks....my time to say something...please bear with me bc some of this is hard to say and some of this might hurt some of your feelings...if it does than i apologize in advance. I have to get this out and this is how i really honestly feel about some things i have seen and done.
First of all let me get this one off my chest. I totally understand if u are mad at someone that ur first thought would be to bash them on ct If thats what u want to do then thats up to you But be sure if u do it your not just sitting there lying about stuff just to bash someone. There was a recent bullentin about me and one of my friends. This bullentin was very much a lie for the most part. I have know about this bullentin for awhile and i have taken a chance to think about what i should say in response to it or if i should even respond at all. All i can say about the bullentin is if u wanna believe it then u can. But dont go around reposting shit when u dont have both sides of the story. If u were a friend and reposted this then maybe u should have read it and come to me and ask me before u reposted it and shit Yes it was true that i myself reposted this bullentin, but i did it only for the purpose so someone could see it and take care of it. The person did care of it when they saw it. I can sit here and show u conversations and prove the bullentin wrong but i dont feel the need to start more drama. All i will say is bc of this i have been shown who my real friends are. At least take the time to hear my side of the story. Very few people here know about me or the other person who was talked about in it. If u heard the whole story u might be suprised about what u hear. If u want the whole story then pm me...and i will be gad to tell you. I am not ashamed to tell anyone The lyrics at the end of this are lyrics that me and the other person believe describe both of us and describe the situation very cosely.
The second thing i would like to say is concerning angela. I would like to explain whats going on with her and who she is to me that way you might be in a better positon to understand where i am coming from and might see it for what it is, and see that there is no way it could be made up. Me and Angela have know each other for awhile, and we have become very close to each other Angela has been in the hospital for awhile and she is having heart failure, blackouts, siezures, and having very high temperatures. Her heart has stopped several times and the doctors are confused at to what is wrong with her. I am not there with her so i cannot tell you what is wrong with her. I get updated by her best friend daily and thats the only way i get info. So please dont ask me whats wrong with her bc i dont have the answers. Her fever has gotten very high lately and she has had memory loss. She has forgotten everyone including her best friend there with her and only remembers me. She is currently refusing to take medication bc she says she will only take it if i tell her to and if i am there This concerns me deeply bc i am not there and if she does not take it she will not get better. Below is a conversation that i had with her recently to show u what i am talking about.
Angela (5/2/2007 7:26:36 PM): she didnt keep food down today either
john mills (5/2/2007 7:26:45 PM): keep trying
Angela (5/2/2007 7:27:58 PM): I am
john mills (5/2/2007 7:28:05 PM): k
Angela (5/2/2007 7:28:13 PM): between her trying to fucking kill me
john mills (5/2/2007 7:28:32 PM): she has no idea who u are/
john mills (5/2/2007 7:28:34 PM): ?
Angela (5/2/2007 7:28:46 PM): nope
Angela (5/2/2007 7:29:30 PM): 107.5
Ok...this was her best friend talking to me. I am now gonna show u what happend when her best friend handed her the computer.
Angela (5/2/2007 7:45:03 PM): ok so you want me to give her laptop
john mills (5/2/2007 7:45:08 PM): yea
Angela (5/2/2007 7:45:15 PM): ok be back
john mills (5/2/2007 7:45:40 PM): k
Angela (5/2/2007 7:45:41 PM): hi?
john mills (5/2/2007 7:45:48 PM): hey hun its john
Angela (5/2/2007 7:45:57 PM): hi baby
Angela (5/2/2007 7:46:08 PM): who is this whore who is here?
john mills (5/2/2007 7:46:30 PM): she is your best friend
Angela (5/2/2007 7:46:38 PM): no I dont know her
john mills (5/2/2007 7:46:40 PM): be nice to her
john mills (5/2/2007 7:46:46 PM): yes u do she is your best friend
Angela (5/2/2007 7:46:55 PM): you sure?
john mills (5/2/2007 7:47:12 PM): yes i sure she keeps me updated on u
Angela (5/2/2007 7:47:21 PM): ok
john mills (5/2/2007 7:47:35 PM): dont kick her ass or anything
john mills (5/2/2007 7:47:40 PM): be NICEEEEE
Angela (5/2/2007 7:47:45 PM): ok
john mills (5/2/2007 7:47:47 PM): and be nice to the doctors
Angela (5/2/2007 7:47:51 PM): no
john mills (5/2/2007 7:47:54 PM): DONT HIT ANOTHER ONE
Angela (5/2/2007 7:48:08 PM): no needles
Angela (5/2/2007 7:48:14 PM): no meds
john mills (5/2/2007 7:48:18 PM): WHY?
Angela (5/2/2007 7:48:27 PM): needles hurt
Angela (5/2/2007 7:48:34 PM): meds nasty
john mills (5/2/2007 7:48:53 PM): i know but they are trying to get u better...THIS IS JOHN and im telling u to let them do what they need to do
Angela (5/2/2007 7:49:21 PM): I know that you are john
john mills (5/2/2007 7:49:35 PM): ok then im telling u to let them do what they need to do
more conversation between me and angela
Angela (5/2/2007 7:51:18 PM): am I a drug addict?
Angela (5/2/2007 7:51:47 PM): baby???????
john mills (5/2/2007 7:52:01 PM): no your not hun
john mills (5/2/2007 7:52:07 PM): there trying to help u
Angela (5/2/2007 7:52:12 PM): ok
Angela (5/2/2007 7:52:22 PM): noooooooooooooo
Angela (5/2/2007 7:52:30 PM): do i have to
Angela (5/2/2007 7:52:40 PM): 2 shots
john mills (5/2/2007 7:53:00 PM): yes u have to
john mills (5/2/2007 7:53:07 PM): if u wanna get better
Angela (5/2/2007 7:53:16 PM): yes
Angela (5/2/2007 7:53:24 PM): owwww
john mills (5/2/2007 7:53:56 PM): im sorry hun its for your own good
Angela (5/2/2007 7:54:06 PM): dots
Angela (5/2/2007 7:54:12 PM): I see dots
john mills (5/2/2007 7:54:21 PM): yea hun hang in there
Angela (5/2/2007 7:54:29 PM): ucky
john mills (5/2/2007 7:54:35 PM): im sorry
Angela (5/2/2007 7:55:10 PM): tinkle tinkle little star
john mills (5/2/2007 7:55:27 PM): shines so bright
Angela (5/2/2007 7:55:38 PM): love you
john mills (5/2/2007 7:55:44 PM): loves ya to hun
Angela (5/2/2007 7:56:05 PM): ut oh
Angela (5/2/2007 7:56:10 PM): be back
john mills (5/2/2007 7:56:13 PM): ok
Angela (5/2/2007 7:57:55 PM): ok
Angela (5/2/2007 7:58:09 PM): hi
john mills (5/2/2007 7:58:14 PM): hi
Angela (5/2/2007 7:58:38 PM): I back
Angela (5/2/2007 7:58:39 PM): no feel good
john mills (5/2/2007 7:58:42 PM): *waves hi*
john mills (5/2/2007 7:58:47 PM): hang in there
Angela (5/2/2007 7:58:53 PM): I trying
Angela (5/2/2007 7:59:11 PM): threw up blood
Angela (5/2/2007 8:15:29 PM): back
Angela (5/2/2007 8:15:29 PM): the whore is back too
Angela (5/2/2007 8:15:42 PM): she laying on chair to sleep
Angela (5/2/2007 8:16:02 PM): I going to go sleep soon
john mills (5/2/2007 8:16:17 PM): she is not a whore............she is your best friend and i expect you to be nice to her until i get there
Angela (5/2/2007 8:16:33 PM): only until you get here
john mills (5/2/2007 8:16:59 PM): and then you will be nice once im there
Angela (5/2/2007 8:17:04 PM): ok
Angela (5/2/2007 8:17:11 PM): whats her name
Angela (5/2/2007 8:17:29 PM): baby?
Angela (5/2/2007 8:17:41 PM): I cold
Angela (5/2/2007 8:17:49 PM): what her name
john mills (5/2/2007 8:17:51 PM): lyra
john mills (5/2/2007 8:17:55 PM): she is your best friend
Angela (5/2/2007 8:18:08 PM): ohhhhh
Angela (5/2/2007 8:18:10 PM): ok
Angela (5/2/2007 8:18:20 PM): you tried what?
john mills (5/2/2007 8:18:42 PM): it means im trying to get to ya also a name of a song
Angela (5/2/2007 8:18:56 PM): ohhh
Angela (5/2/2007 8:19:25 PM): hedley trip from you?
Angela (5/2/2007 8:19:41 PM): baby
Angela (5/2/2007 8:19:49 PM): Johhhhhhhnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
john mills (5/2/2007 8:19:50 PM): yea
john mills (5/2/2007 8:19:54 PM): that is my name
Angela (5/2/2007 8:20:11 PM): whats your middle name?
john mills (5/2/2007 8:20:44 PM): everett
Angela (5/2/2007 8:20:56 PM): Johhhhhhhhhhhnnnnnnnnn everett mills?
john mills (5/2/2007 8:21:42 PM): yes
Angela (5/2/2007 8:21:43 PM): nice
john mills (5/2/2007 8:21:47 PM): thanks
Angela (5/2/2007 8:21:55 PM): me be nice to lyra
Angela (5/2/2007 8:22:07 PM): I behave
john mills (5/2/2007 8:22:17 PM): ok thanks do it for me
Angela (5/2/2007 8:22:22 PM): I is
john mills (5/2/2007 8:22:28 PM): yea
Angela (5/2/2007 8:22:38 PM): I tired again
Angela (5/2/2007 8:22:52 PM): stupid shots
ok you see now what i am talking about. I cant make that shit up. I am the only one shes knows and that sucks for me. Yes it true that i have gone to strangers on here telling me this story and asking them to help me. I dont have enough money to get there and i do feel bad bc i believe that she needs me.
Angela (5/1/2007 7:08:04 PM): ok
john mills (5/1/2007 7:08:29 PM): ok
Angela (5/1/2007 7:08:51 PM): Angela is doing good just a little on the confused side
john mills (5/1/2007 7:09:13 PM): ok will u tell me the name of the hospital...room number...and phone number?
Angela (5/1/2007 7:09:27 PM): phone isnt hooked up
Angela (5/1/2007 7:09:41 PM): its crmc or harris
Angela (5/1/2007 7:09:45 PM): 204
john mills (5/1/2007 7:09:47 PM): ok
Angela (5/1/2007 7:10:08 PM): but I have good news for you
john mills (5/1/2007 7:10:15 PM): what?
Angela (5/1/2007 7:10:49 PM): still hold your breathe but if she improves friday they will let her go home
john mills (5/1/2007 7:11:31 PM): good
Angela (5/1/2007 7:11:34 PM): isnt it good news
Angela (5/1/2007 7:11:38 PM): ??
john mills (5/1/2007 7:11:38 PM): yes it is
john mills (5/1/2007 7:11:41 PM): it is
Angela (5/1/2007 7:12:08 PM): hold on be right back doctor wants to talk
john mills (5/1/2007 7:12:16 PM): ok
Angela (5/1/2007 7:14:32 PM): fun fun
Angela (5/1/2007 7:14:46 PM): I get to try to get her to take meds
john mills (5/1/2007 7:15:02 PM): lol
john mills (5/1/2007 7:15:05 PM): fun stuff
Angela (5/1/2007 7:15:51 PM): I hate fighting with her to take meds
john mills (5/1/2007 7:15:58 PM): yea i know i know
john mills (5/1/2007 7:17:12 PM): whats her temp
Angela (5/1/2007 7:22:48 PM): 107
john mills (5/1/2007 7:22:53 PM): ok
john mills (5/1/2007 7:23:45 PM): what do u think will happen if i dont come
Angela (5/1/2007 7:24:00 PM): what?????????
john mills (5/1/2007 7:24:27 PM): im just asking if i cant get the money what do u honestly think will happen
Angela (5/1/2007 7:24:46 PM): she will keep fighting
Angela (5/1/2007 7:25:10 PM): unless you tell her you are not coming at all
john mills (5/1/2007 7:25:17 PM): do u honestly think she needs me there?
Angela (5/1/2007 7:25:21 PM): and she will give up
Angela (5/1/2007 7:25:35 PM): she is in love with you
Angela (5/1/2007 7:25:44 PM): of course she needs you
Angela (5/1/2007 7:25:56 PM): why are you doubting yourself?
john mills (5/1/2007 7:26:12 PM): do u think she will get better if i go there?
Angela (5/1/2007 7:26:21 PM): why are you making it sound like you dont feel important
john mills (5/1/2007 7:26:57 PM): im just asking...in your point of view do u think she will get better if i come?
Angela (5/1/2007 7:27:11 PM): if you get here she will stop being sick I believe she will get better
john mills (5/1/2007 7:27:45 PM): im saying i can get close to there but its gonna be hard to get all the way there without some help
Angela (5/1/2007 7:28:14 PM): and we are working on that
Angela (5/1/2007 7:31:04 PM): she wont take them
john mills (5/1/2007 7:31:16 PM): her meds?
Angela (5/1/2007 7:31:35 PM): yeah
john mills (5/1/2007 7:31:56 PM): she better
Angela (5/1/2007 7:34:55 PM): she refuses
john mills (5/1/2007 7:35:02 PM): tell her i said so
Angela (5/1/2007 7:35:09 PM): I tried
john mills (5/1/2007 7:35:17 PM): she better
Angela (5/1/2007 7:36:03 PM): she doesnt want to take them cause she doesnt want to go to sleep yet
john mills (5/1/2007 7:36:43 PM): what do the doctors say
Angela (5/1/2007 7:36:46 PM): she doesnt want to sleep
Angela (5/1/2007 7:36:59 PM): hes on his way back
john mills (5/1/2007 7:37:22 PM): ok ask him what he says
john mills (5/1/2007 7:39:46 PM): did she sleep last night
Angela (5/1/2007 7:39:57 PM): bout an hour
john mills (5/1/2007 7:40:04 PM): ok
Angela (5/1/2007 7:40:18 PM): threw up everything she ate
john mills (5/1/2007 7:40:43 PM): man
Angela (5/1/2007 7:42:54 PM): doctor says it would make her feel better but she doesnt want it
john mills (5/1/2007 7:43:53 PM): tell her to go to take her meds and go to sleep
Angela (5/1/2007 7:43:59 PM): she is extremely pale
john mills (5/1/2007 7:44:15 PM): why?
Angela (5/1/2007 7:44:25 PM): from being sick
Angela (5/1/2007 7:44:35 PM): 107.4
Angela (5/1/2007 7:44:54 PM): she needs to take the meds
Angela (5/1/2007 7:45:09 PM): but she wants you
john mills (5/1/2007 7:45:09 PM): i know
john mills (5/1/2007 7:45:14 PM): i know she does
john mills (5/1/2007 7:46:14 PM): she better take the meds
Angela (5/1/2007 7:46:16 PM): you are the only one she knows right now
Angela (5/1/2007 7:46:20 PM): she keeps asking who are you to me
john mills (5/1/2007 7:46:28 PM): ok
Angela (5/1/2007 7:46:47 PM): all she knows is John I want my john
Angela (5/1/2007 7:47:00 PM): I love John
john mills (5/1/2007 7:47:26 PM): omg tell her to take the meds
john mills (5/1/2007 7:47:49 PM): im telling you tell her to take the medsssssssss
Angela (5/1/2007 7:50:44 PM): it was a battle but she has them
john mills (5/1/2007 7:50:51 PM): ok goo
john mills (5/1/2007 7:50:54 PM): ook good
Angela (5/1/2007 7:51:05 PM): she bit me
Angela (5/1/2007 7:51:28 PM): I told her to stop being a bitch and take hr meds
john mills (5/1/2007 7:51:40 PM): lol...thats not good
Angela (5/1/2007 7:51:58 PM): not funny
john mills (5/1/2007 7:53:01 PM): i know so basically what u are telling me is that she needs me there because im the only one she knows and i need to be there bc she will do what i say??
Angela (5/1/2007 7:53:29 PM): YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
john mills (5/1/2007 7:54:20 PM): she has no idea who u are at all?
Angela (5/1/2007 7:54:27 PM): nope
john mills (5/1/2007 7:54:43 PM): and how long has this been going on
Angela (5/1/2007 7:54:44 PM): Im just some bitch trying to get her to take meds
Angela (5/1/2007 7:54:58 PM): since she woke up yesterday
Angela (5/1/2007 7:55:12 PM): once the fever drops she will be ok
john mills (5/1/2007 7:55:27 PM): are u sure?
Angela (5/1/2007 7:56:23 PM): according to the doctor
john mills (5/1/2007 7:56:24 PM): does she know anyone else?
Angela (5/1/2007 7:56:33 PM): nope
john mills (5/1/2007 7:56:44 PM): so she doesnt know her doctor or anything?
Angela (5/1/2007 7:56:49 PM): no
john mills (5/1/2007 7:57:53 PM): ok but u were texting me yesterday and then handed the phone to u
Angela (5/1/2007 7:58:35 PM): I took it from her
john mills (5/1/2007 7:58:48 PM): ok
john mills (5/1/2007 7:58:57 PM): she obviously knows who i am
Angela (5/1/2007 7:59:23 PM): yes
john mills (5/1/2007 7:59:43 PM): ok
john mills (5/1/2007 7:59:51 PM): i know what i need to know
Angela (5/1/2007 8:00:36 PM): what?
Angela (5/1/2007 8:01:03 PM): you lost me
john mills (5/1/2007 8:01:31 PM): im saying obviously i have to figure out some stuff
Angela (5/1/2007 8:01:40 PM): ok
john mills (5/1/2007 8:02:40 PM): how long are u gonna be on
Angela (5/1/2007 8:02:50 PM): not much longer
john mills (5/1/2007 8:03:24 PM): im me tommorow and i will let u know how far i have gotten on stuff
Angela (5/1/2007 8:03:47 PM): do you want to talk to her tonight before she goes to sleep
john mills (5/1/2007 8:03:57 PM): dont have the phone the person is gone
Angela (5/1/2007 8:04:04 PM): ohhhh ok
john mills (5/1/2007 8:04:11 PM): i will call tommorow
Angela (5/1/2007 8:04:13 PM): tell her you said good night
john mills (5/1/2007 8:04:18 PM): yes
Angela (5/1/2007 8:04:18 PM): and you love her
john mills (5/1/2007 8:04:20 PM): yes
Angela (5/1/2007 8:04:22 PM): ok
john mills (5/1/2007 8:04:40 PM): and i love u to
Angela (5/1/2007 8:04:51 PM): love you too hun
john mills (5/1/2007 8:51:47 PM): hey
Angela (5/1/2007 11:03:32 PM): she is out cold and stopped breathing heart stopped 2 already
Angela (5/1/2007 11:05:09 PM): had 4 seizure type things
As you can see folks im not lying when i say i have to get there quick and i dont have a way there. I dont think she will make it if i dont go. So i hope this clears up any doubts u had about me lying.
I hope that this has cleared up everything for good.
I try so hard can't seem to get away from misery
man I try so hard
will always be a victim of these streets
it aint my fault cuz I...
tried to get away but trouble follows me
and still I try so hard
hoping one day you'll come and rescue me
but until then, I'll be posted up right here in sleet hail snow
but until then...
I'll be posted up right here with my heat gettin dough
I come from the darkside, so I'm havin a hard time stayin on track man my mind be
racin, and I don't even know what I'm chasin' yet I been in and out of relationships, I'm
startin to see thats it's me where the complications at, but I'm layin back prayin that,
you can't have piece of mind of me, I thought I was right but really I'm wrong, in the end
I was to blind to see, I was in the fast lane chasin' my dream, and then it seem when the
fame and cash came they just got me going craaazy lately, lately, lately I beed so faded
tryin to erase it but I cant cuz the drama just goes greater and I been in so many
collisions from puttin shit up till later
It's like I'm taking 5 steps forward and 10 steps back, tryin to get ahead of the game,
but I can't seem to get it on track, and I keep running away from the ones that say they
love me the most how could I create the distance when it's suppose to be close and uh, I
just don't know but I be out here fighting demons and, it's like a curse that I can't shake
this part of Cleveland and lord, would you help me? it's hard to manage cuz everyday's a challenge and man I'm slippin
can't lose my balance I'm tryin not to panic
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