Ok those of you on here i have been talking to know my rantings about my husband and were beginning to wander why i ever married him in the first place-- I had began to wonder my self but after reading my Bible a few minutes ago-something I have kinda gotten out of since my momma died and me and him seperated- God gently reminded me of the wife of Provebs 31 she has been my role model for nine years. You will get to know me better in a much later blog but right now it's the husbands moment. He can be irritating, he can be extremly rude and bossy and loud. I have learnd that when he feels threatened he will become posseeive of my but he does have his issues more than most of us he has very good reasons but you know what that not what this blog is about. The real stonecutter is a very wonderful man if you can ever get him off the computer to spend time with you he can be quit caring and loving and wonderful. I love him immensly and I hope he realizes that after he reads this. He is funny and smart and he may seem quiet on here but he is a chatterbox and I miss that bout him lol. He does care even though I dont always see it He does ignore me but I guess I dont always think to stop and say hey pay some attention to me-I know I shouldnt have to do that but Stone does get off into his opwn little world and sometimes you have to shake the tree a little to get him to look up. He not always perfect but he does give me the freedom I need to explore things and find things out on myself.I think had he have been more attentive to me these past nine years I probably still wouldnt be able to take 3 screaming kids into walmart by myself. He never complains if the house isnt perfect(Of course he would get told where to go on that note and he knows it) He doesnt always have the perfect job I know he can do better even if he doesnt see it but we have always gotten by with a lot of prayer but we got by. The kids have never gone hungry-I made sure he has never gone hungry. The bills have always gotten paid(even if I did sign the checks)He paid for my vip-all I could see was that the kids need new shoes and winter clothes-I never saw that hey his vip is about to expire I never saw it as a sweet gesture-I have been worried soo much bout the kids and how they are having to go without some things for the first time in their lives I have been fighting so hard for them that I havent stopped to think that hey maybe I need to fight for us too. I have always been his champion bc he has never had one- He has never once been mine He has never once defended my honor--I am a strong woman-I am my own champion I tell people on my own to kiss my ... I fear no one but my God-My God has always been my champion while I was busy being my husband's. I prayed for God to provide me with the perfect husband for me... Stone asked me out three days later. We've been together ever since not always an easy ride but we hav ehad some good times. A lot of the things that have made me angry, are the very reasons I feel in love with him. I CAN tell him NETHING and freinds he has heard some stuff from me that would make either the pope or a sailor blush with shame! Try being in the room when me and my bff in texas get started or me and my bff here he will turn soo red- that happens to be my favorite game lol. So i know you'll still be asking my why did you....? Because I fell in love with him and sometimes it takes a little rough patch to get through the good ones. I'm not writing this blog to excuse him from our biggest arguments but I know he's not perfect I dont expect him to be but inside of him there lies an even greater man- one who will turn off the computer, one who will spend time with his kids one who will spend time with his wifeand take the time to pay her some attention and wow her- but that greater man can only be woken up by an even GREATER MAN- in the mean time I do love my stone cutter and I do understand him and I do get him I'm just going to continue to pray for him bc he is in even greater hands than mine my marriage is in even greater hands than mine. I hope that after reading this my freinds esp those in the family- still tryin to catch up with the name changes lol- will all go and show him some love tell him Bambi sent you. I hope you have enjoyed reading this blog I hope you remember that Fubar is just for fun and I hope you remember that your loved ones are still out there waiting for you- so logout, turn your computer off and go give them a hug today even if you only have pets lol! Lot more huggin lot less cybering let's remember the real stuff in life. Have a great and bleesed joy filled day! Stoncutter isn't just my husband he is also my very best freind in the entire world! I had almost forgotten that-- Stonecutter if your reading this--I LOVE YOU BABY! I MISS YOU!
