i just started typing some arbitrary thoughts its gonna be an on going descent into stupidity so let me know when you think im off the reservation
yo i didnt spell check though hell your lucky i put punctuation in it Q
i am still trying to decide whether i truly love my self and am seeking true happiness and my total freedom.
or i totally hate myself and dont really care about anything therefore perceive total freedom and have attained
total happiness. or is it that i truly love myself so that i dont care about anything and therefore i have achieved
perceived total happiness? i honestly believe that i am chasing my proverbial tail in this effort to find meaning
in meaningless things both things physical and psychological. and yet i am helpless to ignore this train of
thought. one would be hard pressed to call it a train of logic. in the end only opinions can be presented in any
seriousness. i offer no answers only more questions. you are about to witness the ravings of a man as absurd
as the universe that i was spawned in. there may be no rhyme or reason to this out pouring of silliness. i find
that coherence of thought can be difficult to obtain when you have the attention span of a grape.so bear with
me please.
if asked why i thought i was born. i would have to reply because my parents liked to fuck. my personal belief
is that the only meaning in our lives is that which we give to it through our of the actions we take. and our
perceptions of those actions measured against the moral code or belief system that we have chosen to adopt.
or have evolved, in that our beliefs and morals are a coping mechanism to deal with the absurdity of this existence.
and are flexible over time so that the shift in logic is in perceptible to the individual and perhaps even those
that have close and constant interaction with us.is this perhaps a mutual dilution. codependent denial at its
finest? the pervasive belief that there has to be more than this. some choose to give away their innate freedom
to religion in order to give structure and meaning to life and the hope of eternal existence all in vain. one can
not negate the existence of a creator. in fact the existence of a creator would truly adhere to occums razor in
that it truly would be the simplest answer. but again we find that there are no tangible means by which to prove
or disprove the fact of the matter. let alone those that profess what happens after death or to know the will of
god(i will not capitalize even when speaking of the christians perception of god). those individuals are the epitomy
of the absurd. i suppose that everyone is entitled to an opinion. but should not an opinion be based on some
sort of fact and not just whimsical fantacies and the desire for there to be an answer. when in fact or should i
say probability is that there is no answer as much as we desire there to be one?
one can not negate the existence of god any more than he can honestly profess to believe in him with any sound reason. wishful thinking leads to belief in religion.
i dont believe or disbelieve in god. but belief in a creator and belief in a religion are not synonymous in reality .
i can only laugh at those that profess to have any understanding of the nature of said beings existence or lack there of
and anyone that professes to know the will of god is doubly a fool
anyone that professes to have any knowledge of what happens following death is a liar both to themselves and to those that
they profess to.
personally believe that the only meaning in life is that
which we set for ourselves.
we feel the need for meaning whether or not it exists
therefore we have crutches to deal with this (i.e.
religion
drugs, suicide, philosophy, i dont believe that there is any true empathy or benevolence in this world
any charitable act is self serving in that it is done to make oneself feel better about their actions else where therefore they are not truly benevolent actions at all.
no action good or bad is made without an internal motivation (i.e.
self righteousness, that warm fuzzy feeling what ever the case may be and in the case of perceived bad acts greed, lust, envy the list goes on)
