I now know what true fear is; it's the terror of knowing that you may have the early stages of cervical cancer.
As a woman of over 40, I am required to get a yearly physical (you know what I mean ladies), which I did in October.
I got a call a few weeks later letting me know that I needed to have additional tests due to some abnormal results. They did schedule a Colposcopy for me, which I was suppose to have done today. Due to the unavoidable delivery of a baby, the OB/GYN was not available to perform the test, therefore I had to reschedule.
I was a little upset at having to drive 45 mins to get to the doctor's ofc, having to take off 3 hours early from work, only to arrive and be told that I'd have to reschedule.
Thinking that perhaps the test was unneccessary I called back to cancel the rescheduled appointment.
Much to my dismay, I was then informed that I couldn't cancel the appointment, it HAD to be done. I found out today that my test didn't just come back as "abnormal", but it came back as a stage 1 for possible cervical cancer. The test is to determine if there is any need to worry about whether they caught it early enough or if I'll have to go through additional tests or procedures to try and rid my body of the cancer.
As if things in my life weren't difficult enough, something like this comes along and scares the F**K out of me.
Seriously scared....