Dj Countrygirl's blog: "the people i have lost"

dear kim,

i wish you was here to see your sister's kids and my kids. i wish u did not leave us like u did but i

guess god had different plans for u, i wish u was here because i can remeber when we would hang out.

i find myself thinking about u every chance i get. you was my best friend and it is hard to know that u r gone but i hope u know we miss u alot. u will always be in our hearts and we will never forget u. i have lost u and both of my grandma's and i think about yall alot, i wish yall knew how much i miss yall and i am thinking of yall everyday. just wish u was here so u could have had kids and we could have let our kids grow up together like we did.i know yall are up there in heaven looking down on me and seeing me cry but i try to be strong for yall and i know yall r taking care of my kids and one these days i will see yall again.just know i will never forget yall but sometimes i feel like yall r here with me,and i know my grandma's r taking care of u.god knows i miss yall. i have been talking to your sister and she says her little girl looks like u.me and your sister have got close and all we talk about is u and how much we miss u and wish u was here,i have talked to your mom.i know your dad is in heaven with u now i know u r glad he is with u now to take care of u.i just hope yall r not in no pain no more and u r walking the street of gold and i know god is taking care of u. so i have no worries bout that. i just miss yall.yall r my hole world. i just wish did not leave me when i needed u the most because i know if i need some to talk to. i could talk to yall would make me feel better and right now iwould to have yall here so i can talk to yall but i know if i need to talk to yall. yall r there in spirit. it is not like i can go to u in preson and talk to yall but i know if i need yall.i know yall r there for me throw the hard times and the bad times but just know i love yall and u r in my heart but i need to get in bed now i am tired but sweet dreams yall think bout me.