As most of you know my grandfather passed away Oct 15 this year. It has taken me this long to really be able to write about it. As most of you know he had been in the hospital since May. He went in the day I got out of the hospital for my own surgery. On Oct 15 I was sitting here at home like always. My sister called me at around 11 am. I knew something was wrong by the fact that she is a teacher and was calling me at such a early time. Grandfather had been struck by a infection that quickly took its toll on him. With having been in the hospital so long infections were gonna happen and had. This one however had taken into his lungs and the docs needed us at the hospital. My sis, mother and I made the trip and once we got there sis and I were taken into a room to conference with his docs. We realized the end had come and it was time to not be selfish on our part but to let him go into Gods hands. We gave the docs our decision and we only asked he be in no pain. We went back into the room. I noticed right away that there was alot of hospital personel in his room and in the hall outside. They undid the machines and gave him some morphine for pain. I said what I needed to to him and that is for me. He passed painlessly when the Lord reached down for his new angel. I then saw through my own tears some of the staff crying. I asked one of the people there why so many staff was there and why some would be crying. She said that grandfather had been there so long that many of them could not help but grow attached to him. Even in the worse time of his life he had still touched others lives.
We called the funeral home he had worked at for the last 28 years to come get him and take him back home. They got there and made sure he got the dignity he so rightfully deserved. They were crying as well. He was almost at the funeral home everyday even when he was not working. If to do nothing else but have a Mt Dew and a pack of nabs that he always kept stocked there for everyone. My sis and I had decided already that he would not be going through a autopsy. He had had enough done to his body and there was no need for anymore.
We had the funeral on Oct 18th. I saw alot of people that grandfather had touched through his 85 years. I had met many of them before with grandparents having raised my sis and I. It was nice to see so many honoring my grandfather. We did a graveside service and like grandfather would want it was kept short and sweet. People from surrounding funeral homes had sent some of their staff to honor him as well. I cannot thank my fiance Sandy and the kids for helping me and the rest of the family through a very hard day. I cried alot of tears on their shoulders that day. I still find it hard to look at a picture of him or think of him and not get choked up. I know it will get better with time. Again it has taken me this long to do this blog.
I am still rehabbing my back. I now go for 4 hours a day in physical therapy. My lower back is still in pretty bad shape and if things are not better by the end of these sessions then we will have to do other tests. If nothing can be done then I am gonna be with this pain for life. That would suck. I can only hope for the best and do my best.
I hope everyone has a safe holiday season. I know we will look at this xmas very different. Thanksgiving felt like there was a empty seat that will never be filled again. My sis and I no longer have the people who raised us. Both grandmother and grandfather are gone. We now have each other to fall back on and of course our families. I will try and be better about keeping the blogs updated. I just needed this time for myself. I know you can understand that. To all my friends and family you have my love always.
