XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "thinking , reflecting"

she calls his name ,, he comes .. 

she cries for him .. hes hers .. 

virtual strangers ... 

she says shes in love but shes only known him a few months what does she know of love 

of its ups and down , its ins its outs .. 

she knows he has a wife .. she knows he's living with someone yet she still takes him .. 

claims him as her own .. 

his wife waits patiently wondering if he'll he call .. and when he doesn't tries to feel nothing at all ... 

the tears continue to fall .. 

as she knows he sleeps in another bed .. 

we not married anymore he says .. she looks at him and steels herself , she doesn't him to see her cry ... 

if only he wasn't so cold .. 

if only ... he was who he once has .. 

thier love .. was posionous ... 

so painful .. 

so many fights for silly things .. 

she fighting for her rights ...

loves a bitch of a thing , u can't just turn if off like a tap ... 

she knows she has to leave she knows its so over .. and yet her heart still cares.. 

she was one who was there all the whole damn , she was one who bleived in him and everything he wanted .. he ... isnt anymore .. who he was .. 

who she loved is gone .. gone forever like a fallen eyelash blown away after a wish .. 

she wishes the next one luck , she knows only to to well he'll try and break her spirit to , and control her .. take her from everything she knows and belong only to him ... and not to herself again ... 

the wife stops herself from calling the girlfriend , and tries to fight the urge to want to hurt her but it intinctual ... like a fire burning ,burning through flesh...

pain pain pain , she tell herself as she lets him go ...

trying to force her heart not to care , not to feel ...

it all hurts so much ... 

but she keeps going day after day hour after hour .. knowing that she will get over him again .... and then never again will let him close to her to steal her joy to steal who she is...