Delicious Melishush's blog: "THE ONES WHO TOUCH MY HEART"

it's that time again people....time to get back to life and let the internet drama go for a while. i may or not be back..i don't know yet. what i do know is that something that was supposed to be fun turned out to be a popularity contest and that's really too bad. i've met some really sweet people on lc and, hopefully, they'll stay that way. i'm not going to delete my account yet. i may decide not to stay gone for very long so you all won't lose me and you can still get points for leaving comments and things. i just need a break from all the bullshit. the ones who were the most special to me know who they are so i'm not gonna be sending out special goodbyes to anyone. y'all behave and try to keep the drama down lol...*hugs*

sometimes, we meet people who seem sweet but, for one reason or another, we don't communicate very often. still, they always brighten our day and help us start out with a smile...this blog is about someone just like that. she's always the very first to send me a comment wishing me a great day or a good morning and, while i'm sure it's something she does for everyone, it means a lot to me. not only is she the first to wish her friends a good morning, but she's always there to help you out if you need help leveling or maybe just an ear. she's one of those people that you can actually feel is genuine...there's nothing fake about this girl!! if it weren't for her, i'd just be a grump all morning not even trying to smile until noon (and that's no exaggeration) but she always makes me smile and, in some little way, gives me hope that the day might just turn up something good. so, pussycat....here's to you darlin!! *hugs*

if you never hear my voice, know that it sings because of you. if you never see my face, know that it smiles because of you. if you never hold my hand, know that it reaches out for you. if you never feel strong enough, know that i will lift you up. if you never have the courage you need, know that i have enough for us both. if you never feel peace, know that i will comfort you. if you never have a dream, know that i will dream for you. if you never feel a part of anything, know that you are my everything. most of all.... if you never feel loved, just know that i will love you always.

this one is for the people who are special to us all. not about anyone in particular...just the ones who have been in our lives at one time or another. the ones who have touched us all and made us better for it.the ones who came into our lives and directed us with gentle hands and hearts, talked and listened, loved and chastised us, gave us a sense of family and belonging and unconditional understanding. all those people who came to us with the love and trust of a child....never second guessing us for a second but instead, holding us up and believeing in us no matter what. it may have been a child, a mother, a brother, father, sister....whoever. it could have been someone who was no relation at all but who was just as close as any relation could have been. a best friend, a lover, someone who you really didn't even know. yes, it could have been a total stranger who just happened along at the right time....when you needed someone most. when you needed someone to just recognize that you were alive and that you needed a kind word or a smile...and then gave it to you without asking for anything in return. all those people that left a longing or a full-blown ache in your heart when they left. the ones who made you cry in their absence wishing you could have left with them....that they never had gone..... but then smile just by thinking of them. we try so hard not to think about these people, don't we? we try so hard to hide from the pain but isn't that what makes us human? the ability to think AND feel? we loved and lost and that hurts but wouldn't it have all been meaningless without the ones we can't see?

But i'll try to anyway. she's gorgeous....so much so that, sometimes, she gives me a complex. she's sensitive...sometimes too much but that's part of who she is and i couldn't live without her being around me. she's crabby....and yet, i'd rather be around her than with 10 of the sweetest people i know. she's a smart cookie....very educated and she has the common sense to kick your ass when you need it instead of turning the other cheek just because you're friends. she's hilarious....so many comedians looking for a job already and she tries to be funny...and she's good at it too! she's the one person who will listen when you need an ear and try to help anyway she can. she's the most unselfish person i know but, at times, she's just as impatient as i am....which makes for a very interesting friendship! lol she's the one person you know in your heart will always be there for you no matter what....and she gives the kind of friendship that makes you feel empty when it's not there even if it's only temporary. i don't need to say her name...she knows who she is. what she doesn't know is that, when things do get fucked up, it's only a misunderstanding.....a series of unfortunate events that snowball and not a campaign against her. she also doesn't know that, if i could, i would do whatever it took to turn back time and stop these events from taking place so that she would never feel one ounce of pain...because...i love her. she's more than a friend or a sister...she's a part of me. a part that makes it impossible to describe in detail exactly how much she means to me. saying that i love her more than anyone else in the world wouldn't even touch the importance of her friendship to me. all i can hope for is that, someday, she'll realize that our closeness goes beyond love for me....it's more of a need that only she can fill because of who she is. no one could ever take her place in my life or in my heart. i love you girl....and i'm sorry for everything.

There is another one of my friends who is, quite frankly, more special to me than anyone else in the world ever will be. She is so beautiful, caring, attentive, funny, intelligent and just generally too good for any man! lol You know who i'm talking about...right Nat? She's my very best friend, my toughest critic, my harshest reality check and even more than all that, she's my sister and i love her with all my heart. Ever wonder what happened to the real friends you find a long the way? I don't and i never will because i know i'll have her always. You know when you meet online and your friendship lasts for about a year and a half, it's not going to end...it's just going to keep getting better and i can't wait for that. Honestly, i don't see how it could get any better but something tells me it's going to. I love you Nat...not for who you are but for who you are to me. You're my reminder that, even though it feels like it quite often, life really doesn't suck all that much! lol Well, ok it does....but you make it more interesting!

Sometimes in life you have days where it seems nothing can go wrong. Everything comes up roses and sunshine and nothing could possibly mess it up...it's just that good. Then, you have those days that seem to go on forever. Nothing goes right and you wonder why you even got out of bed much less left the peacefulness of your house to let the world take yet another crack at you. On those days, there's always one person who comes out of nowhere, lifts your spirits and even manages to get a trace of a smile to cross your face. Today i found one of those people. Or rather, they found me. He's an absolute sweetheart and even though i wasn't really in the mood when we started talking about things, he soon made me glad that i gave him a chance to pull me out of my "mood". Funny how those things happen isn't it? One minute you're ready to blow a fuse and the next, you've stumbled upon someone who instinctively knows how to calm you. Fate or coincidence? Who really cares? Maybe it's just one of those things. You know the ones i'm talking about...those things that are better left a mystery. The things that you don't want to explore too closely for fear that it will reveal nothing more than what it looks like on the surface. Thank you Clay...for restoring what little faith i had in the world tonight...and Happy Birthday to you!!!