The mirror of my past
The mirror of my past is full of shadows and fears
It reflects a life that was wasted by depression and tears
All the self-pity that one miserable life can have
Wallowing, suffocating, drowning in the past
Holding onto a sorrow that won’t let me go
It was the most comfortable me that I know
Climbing, reaching, scratching my way out
Clawing my way through all the jungle of doubt
Somebody help me! My god, where are you?!
I can’t do this on my own! O god! What do I do?
I’m tired of crying. I’m sick of those fears
My guilt has plagued my life for too many years
I need to change. I need to get well
I need to get myself out of this hell!
I don’t want to be that woman that I was back then
I’m ready for that new life to begin
I can’t do the same things that I did
When I screamed and ran and cried and hid
I must stand and face the world without fear
To walk the steps of advice that I hear
Yeah, I’ll get frustrated and I’ll probably cry
But I won’t give up any more but continue to try
The mirror of my past is full of shadows and fears
And I have suffered so long for so many years
But there is a brighter future I’ve never known before
And I have hope for tomorrow and too much to live for
2/4/04
