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i love thi so much i would die for thi.... i would write i love thi in my owen blood 1,000 times. to show how much thi mean to me. but the voices in my head say to thy that to just give up cause thi is never going to come back fully.. cause thy keeps fucking up.. no matter how hard thy try to say thy feelings they come out all screwed up... so thy have gave up on saying how thy feel... thy will just deal with stuff on thy owen.. that way thi dont feel as if thy is taking it out on thi.....cause thy would rather kill thy self then take or hurt thi for any reason

 

 

 

as my soul dies so does my heart why should i keep going with this hole in my heart. they say once the soul starts dieing tthat there is no truning back. my soul was saved once by the love of a woman. but she is done now and there is nothing i can do to stop my soul from dieing. i dont know what to think anymore. the voices in my head are not making sence except the one telling me that im just a fuck up and to let my soul go cause there is nothing i can do to change the things that i have fucked up. and will never have the love i had from the one woman that loved with everything i had. so tried of a bleeding heart. my soul is just dieing from trying to fix the bleeding heart. and there is nothing i can do about it cause i have lost the love of my life forever. i gues ill just have to deal with having a dead soul and wait for the body to die. i just feel like i would be better off if i just faded away that way i can hurt or cause the one woman i love with al my heart and what is left of my soul. i had my angel in my life and all i did was poush her away. i even did what i thought was right and also put my feelings out on he table for them to get shoved aside. and it is was already for seen what would happen if i love my angel and there is no stoping my soul from dieing..

 

 

 


 i sit and wait for u to make up ur mind and let me know how u feel about me and when u tell me.... i feel realy good but then after i spend time with u things change again not sure what to think anymore... all i know is what is in my heart is true love... i have been told if u love someone then the past dont matter and if u are in love with someone u will be with that person no matter what.. u will work things out with the person u are in love with and trust that person..... unless u are giving proof not to anymore.... but with the love i have i never will leave thi side no matter what has been done in the past i just look for the future... all i ever want is the truth no matter if it will make me dought cause if i get told i have been lied to i get upset cause i dont know what to belive all i ever want is the truth cause if u love someone u never lie to them about anything expectly if u say u love that person and want to work things out with that person

 

 

 

when ur in love with someone that shares that love. a heart will not bleed it just keeps on beating... but when the love is gone and things just fall apart a heart only knows one thing to do and that is stop beating and start bleeding out... and shrink when that happens the soul in the person that loves someone so much they would rather die just fades away and dies.. and there is only one thing that can stop that from happening but that will never happen... cause the one loosing the soul has fucked up one to many times and the person that the lost dieing soul is in love with deeply does not belive a word that comes out of  the dieing souls mouth..

 

 

 

i was a lost soul wondering around in the dark trying to find my way. then you came into my life. and the darkness went away. i felt like i had found what i was searching for. but now your gone out of my life and im cank in the dark not even trying to find my way. i just sit and cry out your name with tears of blood running down my cheeks. hopeing one day that my angel comes back to me and the light and the joy i felt will be back again also

 

 

 


i long for the day that i can hold you in my arms again. to be able to run my fingures threw  your lovely hair agin. i would love to be able to press my lips agaisnt your soft lovely lips again. i even would love to be able to kiss every ench of that lovely very sexy body of your again one day. but i guess all i can do is hold onto the memories of our time together and wish and hope that one day that you will come back to my arms and let me hold you and all again one day

 

 

 


as i walk the streets trying to find what im looking gfor i hear your voice in my head that is lovely voice teling me that ill find what im looking for and that you still have your love for me. then something brings me back around and i relize that it is just a voice in my head and wishful thinking. then my phone rings and it is you on the other end wiht that soothing lovely voice of you. i just long for the the day to hear those three speical words " I LOVE YOU" to come over the phone from your end again. i just hope one day to hear those words from you again. but when we get off the phone they never come out from you. and i start to think that i will never get the one think that meakes me the happiest in the world and that one thing is you!

 

 

 


the love for a woman can be a lovely thing. it also can b e a deadly thing as well. it is very lovely when that woman you love so dearly knows how you feel and shares the same love for you. but when u love a woman so much that you would do anything in your power for her but she dont have the same love for you. it makes you want to end it all to stop the pain of rejection.

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