it's the last day. and everything is still so messed up. no solutions have become apparent, no plans have been set. everythings all fucked up. im almost completely alone, no family, hardly any friends. This is all on my shoulders. and i cant take it all right now. As of right now, I really dont have a mother or a father. Its a competition between them, and im in the middle. Money is everything to both of them, thats the only thing their concerned about. I am not blaming everyone, I need help tho. " A responsible adult asks for help" well, im asking, and im not receiving, so if a responsible adult gets fucked over, I dont want to be responsible. It's the last day of high school, and im ready as all hell to get out of there, get rid of the pains in my ass, the fucked up rules and shit like that.
All I know, is that I cant handle this stress by myself anymore. Im cramming a years worth of work into 3 months, with no help from my main family. No one can decide on anything, and Im stuck in the middle of it all. Im about 5 seconds away from going back to temptation, making myself feel better, despite a later scar.
I guess I'll write more later... when I can see straight, or think straight. Im too frustrated and angry right now