k first i had to take the caps off cause i just realized i sent out three emails with them on. I just would like to know is it wrong for me not to want to live a jerry fucking springer episode anymore. I mean it is possible to live a life free of insane fucking people to love right. I mean i should be able to expect to love someone and have them love me back. Now i don't mean you know say occasionally "i love you" and then go and do every fucking thing in their lives pointing to the contrary. I am prepared to get some hopefully emotion full responses to this but please lets try to keep the accusatory tones to a minimum por favor. I just really think i have a right to tell someone that treats me like that to just shut the fuck up. Am i wrong in that justification . I mean the whole concept of saying you love someone is really just merely like some sorta reminder or to accent the other things you actually do right now and then. It isn't supposed to completely embody the entirety of said love right. i mean i would be wrong if i had a dog and every day i beat the shit out that dog for absolutely no reason constantly and blame him for my life and try to screw up all the other shit he might have going on in his little doggie life as long as every now and then when i didn't have anything else cruel to say or do i told him "hey I love you". I mean call me fucking crazy but maybe the brainwashing hasn't been as effective as they thought and i can still see the truth.....wait that is the truth right. I don't even need to say i love you really if you get down to it cause i could be really romantic and live everyday for my partner. fulfill every desire and that would be love right. I mean you don't have to actually say a fucking word for it to be true right. So in turn the fucking words have no fucking actual meaning whatsoever but especially if the words are the only thing you do.i mean i love to love. and i love to be in love. and i love to tell who i am in love with that i do in fact love them. It makes me feel good. and it is supposed to i think at least make them feel good to hear me say it But it looses all its fucking meaning when i don't show them one damn thing that means love. I am also frankly tired of people doubting that i mean it when i say it...so this is the deal people i am exiling the words i love you from my fucking vocab. If i do happen to feel that way about you i will just show you every way i can that i do indeed feel that way. if you want to hear me say them though tough. now don't hate on me for this...i didn't do this......i am just taking the queue from the audience participants here and they have all decided for me that if you don't wanna believe my actions then you will never ever fucking believe my words and then what else do i have. you will know though those of you that are held in that way in my heart. There will be no con-fucking-fusion about it. There also better not be any confusion about this for you all either. if you are one of those people beating the fuck out this dog and trying to get me to believe only words then expect me to tell you to shut the fuck up cause i don't hear that shit anymore either. I am done playing around with the l word and am on a strict diet of understand my actions or SHUT THE FUCK UP!
and remember LOVE solicited does not in turn equal LOVE freely given
