Success or Happiness does any of it satisfy?
I've chased both without "success" (that sounds funny)
I guess it depends on what definition you pour into those words.
Happiness and success. they are just words thrown around and back again. defined by the direction of the shifting winds derived from others. usually feeling good (for now) as it tickles your ears. if it is not your own it is borrowed. anything borrowed cannot satisfy, im finding. as it is out of my control and is fleeting it has always left me looking for another lender.
the question success and happiness begs. am i where i am supposed to be. am i being me? i've known that feeling it was my own. hunting bugs with my daughter asking me questions just wanting to know, trying to figure life out... we just want to be known. Without a doubt it has little to nothing to do about stuff its about living life with others and helping each other figure it out.
This feeling is the fire within me. when I feel it i know i'm in proper place. but
the noise of this world presents a cheap imitation, demanding i listen, obey or miss out. compelling it is as we all do submit, hoping their fire desired will be found in its midst. Hopeless it is I do admit.
Submit I say, I will not. I will be me. just wait and see. deny you can't as unique I'll be. just wait and see. I'll prove to you how different I'll be. Just wait and see. Set apart like no other, different, yes, I must be. Just wait and see. I need to be me, unique, not like any other indeed, you will see. Indeed I succeed in separating myself. Set apart, above, on the top shelf.
I am here, I made it, for all to see..... Still empty still hopeless how can that be. Where is everyone I wanted to show.. they need to see.. they need to know. all this work it wasn't for me it was for everyone else to see just how unique I could make myself be.
A small voice from down deep could be silent no longer yelled very loudly... YOU FOOL....don't you see, submit you did to the noise of the world. it deceived you.
it preyed on your weakness, that you must be known. convincing you fully that path you must take had to be your unique made on your own. the secret is that you can only be known when you travel a path with others the same. For how can one know you when you are all alone. You fool. Wake up, take what you've learned, find the common path, give away what you have then only then can you be known.
Relating, helping others is how we are known. That's it. The fire is felt whan we are doing this. I challenge anyone to persuade me differently.
It is the only thing that satisfies. However it is fleeting because I tend to get selfish at times. And that feeling disappears.
We all have a fire that is waiting to burn hot and deep. For most it is just smoldering if not extinguished. We strive to ignite that flame with buckets of self-serving retardant. A hopeless pursuit. I have a pretty big bucket I pull out from time to time. (Ok a lot)
The words I use and the things I do will either stoke the fire within or extinguish it. Serving others or serving myself.
It is in the serving of others that my fire burns hot and satisfies.
Don't fool yourself in thinking that possessing empty words as "success" and "happiness" will satisfy. Or becoming so unique...no-one will understand you or be able to or desire to relate to you. Its aa lesson Ive learned
It is time to feed my fire and share myself.
Tired of being a fool but gaining heat,
* ROYboy
ROYboy (sometimes known as BabyROY or BabyROYboy the dancing baby, in diapers)
