The Enemy Within Me
There are a few who can relate to what we have been through and are willing to sit down a listen to your thoughts,experiences,the horrors,and the love of brotherhood in the experience of war.
You are not alone we are united as brothers and sisters through the impact of what we have done and seen. Often I too can't tell my friends of the true war that is waged between my heart and soul and it flusters into my dayly life.
My heart weans the pain and my soul feeds on its power leading me to not even understand myself. But I know there are a few that will understand when I need/want them to.
But what is my war becomes war for all to experience around me as I struggle to fit the normal life. Of those who have not been in the military,police, how they had to kill or defended our nation or anothers nation and freedom, ultimate price has been paid in full with sweat,blood and forever tears are shed in private by the soldier or their families.
Often question the word WHY and FOR WHAT did I do these deeds for? The suffering of others or Myself, taking the passion and turns it into darkness and a solitude fortress around my heart.
Just made for one, the one is me. For no one will feel it and have the worse parts replayed over and over again as to live it once more, again it replays and the sounds bellow through me, the smells of death burn my nose once more acting like acid throughout my soul.
I can hear my 50 cal echo...
This is why they call it the hand of God!
A Soldiers grief with himself is an everyday battle, a battle cry heard 24/7/365
By
Richard the Zipper (3000 yards my call name)
U.S Marine 2D Division NEV. Scout Sniper Recon
Desert Storm Vet.
SAEPE EXPERTUS,SEMPER FIDELIS,FRATRES AETERNI..
Often Tested,Always Faithful,Brothers Forever...
01/25/09
