Death is here with me as I write this down for all of you to read!
I’m Wolfie and this is the last words you will read from my hands… as I write this I look deeply into the glittery shine of my knife!
It looks back at me with my own eyes and I wonder to my self dose it know what I am about to do when I am finished writing this all down!
I’m drinking tonight… as I did last night too….
And all I can say is the drink dose nothing to easy my pain! It dose not stop the feelings or numb my senses at all….
It simply makes them all stronger!
Makes them all more real!
Maybe I’m not drinking enough?
Maybe one more glass?
Maybe strait?
Yes that dose make it more hard! And work much faster!
Yet I still can not take my eyes from the blade~!
What shall I do?
Shall I give it it’s chance to slice my fragile wrist?
Or should I give it the pleasure of taking my family first?
They deserve it!
Putting me in hell they are!
I’m hot now! But only for a moment..
another drink..
Ahhhhh much better!
I hear the silence of my home now!
But just a few minutes ago it was hell!
Yelling and hate!
But in all of this it is the pain they give me that
Drives me to this point!
But I am not sure that I should let them have
The satisfaction of my death!
Never should they say “we win”
Well here we are now… the last glass
And I feel good…. So long have I waited for this!
But is it just because I know what I am about to do?
Or is it the grog that gives me such freedom!
Well at any rate I will never have to find out!
For when I have finished this I will pickup
My knife and I will show the world just how weak I am!
And then you shall all look upon my empty eyes and weep!
Weep for the soul that could have been yours!
Could have loved!
Could have been friends!
But no!
Now just a corps!
A rotting piece of meat!
Good bye to you all!
I’m going now and no one is here to stop me this time!
No love is left inside my soul!
Blame my family!
But do not fare!
They will join me soon!
Very soon!
In this hell I have made~!
I end now and reach for the knife!
Good night mother!
Goodnight sister!
Goodnight little nick!
I loved you all once!
Goodbye……
This is wolfies last words as his empty eyes stare deep into you!
Always near, Wolfie X
