At the supermarket, reach to grab a tin
A sharp pain wells up from deep within
A word you used quite often, appeared
and once again my heart is speared
Your name seems to pop up everywhere
In the middle of the row I stop and stare
Sinking, remembering days of bliss
This is where you gave me that kiss
Tears, uncontrolled, roll down my cheek
My reflection shows me to be somber and bleak
Shrugging I try concentrating on food
Hate this slow drowning, hate this mood
Mechanically I put things in my cart
I still can't believe that we're apart
Numbed yet capable of feeling pain
Angry that I start crying again
I wonder, what is it that I've done in this life?
To be thrown headfirst in this cesspool of strife
My heart shrinks thinking of you and your pain
Your words pounding relentless in my brain
"I need to leave you if I'm to survive
All I wish is to make you my wife
But 27 years are too much to take
Your mind I love, is this love then a fake?"
You go on, saying "Your personality is unique
All I am doing is compare, finding all others weak
I love you Anne but I'm hurting too much
I need to feel, need your personal touch"
Smiling small through my stream of tears
I know we'll stay friends for many years
One day I hope you and me shall meet
On that day your wife and kids I will greet
Then I can hug you for the very first time
I'm puckering my lips now in pathetic mime
I can touch your skin, inhale your scent
The lacking of this is everlasting torment
I startle when a shopping cart hits my hand
Dazed I find myself near the fruit stand
Green apples, your fruit, they seem to mock
I'm surrounded by fog, still deep in shock
Heading for the exit I stand in line to pay
Never in my life will I forget this day
The day true love splintered and broke me in two
This day, my love, is the day I lost you
©dutch2lips
