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There is a thin line between love and hate, but is that same thin line the one between friend and foe too?
About two weeks ago a high school classmate of mine IM me, at first it was innocent, “how you doing” type of talk, then somehow, within days, it started becoming more and more like two adults sitting at a bar. Once the adult talk started I started laughing not believing it was real, but as he got more I had to end the chatting for a few days.
It wasn't until something inside of me clicked while watching my normal nightly show, Sex and the City, that I realize that I don't want to be the shut in anymore, I want to have flings and start seeing different places. So the next day, or so, when I noticed classmate guy online I sent him a little message, and as things go with me I came out and said I wanted to try having a fling. I just never knew that telling him I wanted to have a fling would get me seconding guessing guys all over again. . .
Last night as we text message back and forth, he asked how much I wanted him on a scale from one to ten. Typical me answered with a question, about getting ask such hard questions, because right at the moment I didn't know if it was him I wanted or if any guy would have done. I also asked him why me, which is where all the second guessing of not only guys but myself started.
His answer was, “I'm horny!” Plain and simple, really. But then he had to go on and say, “you'll be the first big girl I've been with. . . so you may have to work a little at keeping me hard.”
If that isn't a deal breaking I don't know what is. Needless I only wrote back one maybe two word answers after that for about two text messages and then nothing. I don't know how full of himself he is or if he is dense or not, but I don't think there will be anymore flirting between the two of us, or even a fling/hook up. I'm done being with guys who think I am easy. I want one who wants me, not only because I have a vagina, but a guy who likes my body and mind.
This between classmate guy and I could have ended differently if he would have done what any other guy would have done. . . Lie! With one simple little lie, about my hair and/or eyes could have kept me from writing and signing all guys off again.
So lesson learn for both of us, I will always ask why and then question that reasoning, and for him, well he will hopefully learn how to lie to get women in his bed.
