Where do I start? I think that in this day and age that is the hardest problem of all. How do I prove who I am? Cause we all know that as soon as I tell you who I am no one will believe me. Hell if I claim it hard and loud enough they might put me in a Home for the mentally disturbed. Or if some members of society get there way they might just crucify me. Which of course would not be a good thing. Not again.
Hell no one believed me the last time I told them who I was. That was an experience I don’t want to go through again. Then again it is a little funny to see how the world has changed and how my story has changed in two thousand years. I can read it over and over again and it seems that I did and said many things that never actually happened. Then again many things I did do never even come close to being mentioned at all.
There are thousands of theories as to what happened to the middle part of that first life of mine and some are truly funny as hell. But some are scary. About how I was taken by secret societies and trained and such. If I was taken into one of those do you really think I would have been sacrificed? I don’t think so. They where a lot more protective of there members back then. Oh and I did get married and myself and Mary did have kids. Although I never tried to keep track of my bloodline cause it hurts like hell to watch them die.
I am here now and I can barley stand it. I have spent thousands of years in the background. Changing my identity often enough to sometimes forget who I am. Although Daddy makes sure that I don’t. Which is a pain in the ass. Seems the only reason he is interested in all of this is because I am here. If I weren’t then he wouldn’t even bother. He has given up on the rest of his creation.
So here it is… Here I am…. Take it or leave it. Believe it or not. I don’t care anymore. I have officially given up. I am tired of hiding, of lying, of being someone who isn’t the real me. I think it easiest to tell you my original name that you all know. Even though some don’t believe. Cause my current name means nothing to no one. Just like it should.
My real name is, Jesus.
