finding within myself a part of me that shouldn’t be
molded out of pain and many sufferings
shadowing in the darkest corners of my soul defining me
capable of compassion and many ugly things
scratched upon the walls of this box are my insecurities
there is a sense of security in being lonely
that velvet box that once contained my soul is
crumpled up like tumble weed and rolls when pain blows
all sides frayed and torn, like a flag after the storm
it no longer keeps me warm
I am broken shards of glass strewn across a barren waste land
as I’m offered a gentle manicured hand
just out of reach from where i lay broken and scarred
gazing up into a place I’d rather be but it’s too hard
retreating to a corner of my desolate illusion
no longer feeling a pulse for I'm too numb
the over whelming silence is so surreal
after construction of a box made of concrete and steel
sitting in solitary confinement diluted by alcohol
there is no window and the end of that hall
with no entry nor escape my phobias keep me company
turning hate and rage in on myself eventually
destruction of this armor that protected me
the air on my wounds provides me with an epiphany
smear a smile on my face and a tear on my cheek
now it hides the pain from which I do not speak
sit before you stand when you lay flat on your back
walls cannot protect because the pain is being stacked
sitting inside a sandbox of pain saturated by tears
are you focused on the weight paralyzed by fear?
the voice echoes inside the chamber until I understood
as I brushed the sand off my chest, I felt good