InFArREd FaN Me PlZ STHU's blog: "LIFE"

The Beginning of Wisdom as i finish with the final makeup that i put on for the day i pause to take a look infront of the mirror drawing a perfect smile i drag myself out into the day where life goes on life goes on until the makeup wears off when dawn becomes dusk i slowly limp back home sitting down in the corner of the bed i wish tomorrow never dawns i wish i never have to apply the makeup all over again years of pain years of deceit all hidden behind one single layer my scars hidden underneath one single layer of foundation my tears barricaded by this black mascera my emotions seemingly glued together inside with this red lipstick all my desires all my emotions hidden to perfection inside this cosmetic world that is now my home away from home as time slowly ticks by and the day dawns the one in the mirror slowly fades away into the sunlight leaving the other to take over its now or never i am standing here two in one me against the one in the mirror two souls one body one desire a deep desire to live life standing infront of the mirror i resolve to confront my inner fears my desire to live life is more stronger with tears running down my eyes i cry myself to sleep night is all but gone the sunlight slowly streaming in through the windows i rush to get ready for the day putting on my clothes i pause to take a look in the mirror before i step into the world once again i pause for a minute to take the first look, (at what was) the cosmetic beauty of my face now replaced with the inner beauty, once visible only in the mirror