Sadie Grace Love Me Or Hate Me Either W's blog: "The Battle"

Hey Ya'll... Just wanted to let eveyone know why I have been away for awhile... For starters my internet was out for about a week, then about the time it got back up and running the flu set in and had me down for awhile, then I broke up a dog fight and got caught in the middle and now have a shredded left forearm... To say the least, this year has been very damn interesting so far... I know I sure have missed you guys and gals terribly and can't wait to be able to use both hands again, but had to finally let ya'll know what's going on.... If you by chance have my number(s) feel free to give me a call, as it will probably be a few before I am back on again.... But please still show me the love here as you always have... Huggs and Kisses and much Love to all ~ Sadie Grace ~

Right now, I could just scream, till I have no voice left... At this very moment I hate life and most of the things it has to offer... There are a few things that are keeping me sane though... I just hope this winter stuff hurries up and goes away.... I feel my skin crawling and I am trying so damn hard to beat this battle today, but it's slowly but surely taking it's tole... I can't stop the tears that have no purpose and I can't stop the thoughts that make no sense... I pray the winter goes by fast, and summer comes quick... I will win the major war but am losing todays battle....

Lonely and blue, Missing you. Lonely and blue, I don't know what to do. I thought I had seen the light, Thought it might be right. I tried with all my might, But now it doesn't look so bright. Don't know what to do, Feelin' so lonely and blue. Thought there would be two, But now I just miss you. Wanna go but need to stay, Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. I try to stay away, But miss you more each passing day. Wish you were here, To hold me my dear. You put the wind in my sail, But I guess, only time will tell. So lonely and blue, I just don't know what to do. So lonely and blue, I'm just missing you. ~ Sadie Grace ~

ok ya'll here's the update... Spent alot of yesterday trying to get some help with the electric bill, but I was missing one thing, a copy of my lease, even tho I had rent receipts....ok, get one and come back tomorrow and we'll be glad to help with it...Oh, Thank God... Went to the landlords when he got home and asked for a copy,(yes, I did have one till the mice made a bed out of it),yeah, we'll get you a copy made....GREAT, looking even better... Didn't have it yet this morning so went to ask for it again, well, the landlord took it to work with him to make copy...DUH, DIPSHIT, NEEDED IT TODAY...Lanlords suck...couldn't get him at work, so back to square one, can't get help without lease and can't get lease....what the hell is a girl to do??? Put her pride aside and give Mom a call, and let her know your life is not all that good at the moment after all...*wipes away the mixed emotions tears*...I love my MOM, MOM's are great...even barely making it herself, she is paying the bill today and letting me pay her back as I can... There are a few of you out there that offered to do this for me also...for this I thank you from the very depths of my soul...I am just not good at askin' for or even taken money from people, I didn't earn it, so in my mind it's not right... Thank ya'll for the love and support you showed during this hard time...but Thank God, I will still be here on Cherry and still with my FRIENDS that really make my world go 'round.... Huggs, Kisses and Much Much Mad Love ~ Sadie Grace

They say there is a silver lining to every dark cloud...ok...I hopefully will see it soon... Just wanted to let ya'll know that I will probably not be on for awhile after Wednesday...this saddens me so much, I literally depend on ya'll to get me thru these times and now I can't even do that...the reasons why sadden me even more... This past week really sucked, my ex and I had been at it since the sunday before, on Thursday he left and moved back to Florida...YAY...atleast I thought anyways...wasn't aware untill Saturday that the bank account was also emptied...this really sux, my electric bill is due Wednesday, so I won't be on after that... Don't want sympothy or anything like that, just wanted to share with the ones who care...will see ya'll as soon as I can... If any of you see that silver lining to this cloud that is over me, please let me know, it's been awhile since I've seen one... I hope ya'll have a great week, weekend, maybe even month... huggs, kisses and much love to all ~ Sadie Grace

Just finally wanted to take a moment to let ya'll know that I wll be back soon... I had a wonderful weekend with chairbear and my Shanda Lynn... Sometimes it scares me to be happy for a moment, there is always sometihing lurking around the corner....Life is forever throwing tests our way and I know this, Just get through it and go on with things, it that simple....most of the time anyway... I am however having a bit of trouble with this one...not even quite sure why but it's taking me more than a day and alot of energy to get past this one, BUT I will...I know I will...... I have been dealing with this for a year and a half now and it has finally taken on a new twist and turn and now I have to deal with it in ways that will take me away for a while....I will be in and out from time to time, depending on the day and the state of mind... Again I want to thank all of you for being such great friends and seeing me through things in life now at days, actually for the past 6 months ya'll have helped me through more than what you will ever know or have any idea of....thank ya'll for your love and support, it does build bridges... And from time to time I may ask to walk along these bridges and have you meet me half way and sit down and have those talks that built the bridge in the first place....Till we meet again my dear frinds... Huggs, kisses and much love ~ Your Sadie Grace

Hopefully everyone has noticed that everything in back on my profile as it should be...pics are back up and if I can I will have new ones soon... I want to take a moment and thank everybody who was there to listen and to talk to me through this stuff...hopefully it wont be back for a while now....with you guys helping, I feel sure it will stay at bay....And YES, Ya'll helped me tremendously... Please still come see me though I am not in trouble mentally at the time...I am getting back into rating and comment stuff again, that's a great sign... Again my thanks and love to all...
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It's going a little better today, thanks to all of you, and you know who you are...Sometimes just a simple smile and a hello, how are you makes a BIG difference in a person's day...Thank you for taking the time and holding a friends hand...Much love to all...
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I am so sorry I am not around much these days and when I am I don't have much to say...I am going through hell again everybody...I am in a battle within myself and don't know if I will win this time or not...I have deleted alot of stuff and made my pics private, I have not blocked anyone...If you no longer see yourself on my friends list, that's because I haven't heard from you since accepting your friend request, if you would like to be on it send a new one...I just figure no one cares any way...Now I am a number, and not a name...some one asked why, that's all I feel like at the time...I hopefully will be back on a little more as I beat the demons but I have no one to talk to and don't have means to go to a dr., Soooo, I just battle within myself...My head says just give up, but my heart won't let me...Just please keep me in your prayers and please continue to show me that love ya'll are so good at.... I know that not many people will read this, but for those who are truly my friends and do read my stuff, I just felt like I needed to let you know that I am still here, just not alot at the moment...I love all my Cherry friends and family and miss you guys so much... XOXOXOXO ~ Sadie Grace