Well.. shitty days n night n blah. So Alots changed about me...i got a job and i have a life not to mention i miss alot of people. I now work for the board of Education and i work 5am to 5pm FUN!
I have money now because of my job so I can afford to go ouit which is awsomeness, and i can get myself stuff i wantz.
And as far as people I miss..they're all people that are no longer living. this past summr alone..i like 7 friends/family. in jus a matter of 2 months.
I found out only a few months ago a friend of mine Jessica hung herself. She was like me in the fact that we did the same self mutilation BS and we were depressed. Alot of the time i felt she was the only one who could understand how I feel and why I felt the way I did. We were so similar, Same name, same likes, same dislikes. I miss her like all hell. I just wish we stayed in touch. I feel like her death is partially my fault because i didnt stay in touch. I guess one morning a friend of hers walked into her house and she had hung herself in the bathroom on the shower pole that holds up the curtain.
Another friend of mine i knew in highschool jumped off a bridge about a month ago. and another burned to death in a fire. the cause of the fire and the circumstances are still unknown.
But N e wayz my life is so far so good. my daughter is jus getting biggr and biggr. And soon she'll be off to school. I duno how well I will take it but I will roll with the punches so to speak. So yea thats about it.