Annelid's blog: "Ramblings,thoughts and assorted stuff"

Yes, another exciting (or not) blog from yours truly. As I sit here in this drab apartment I've been doing a lot of thinking. If given a choice (s) what changes would I make? Well, let's see. I know that I'm extremely miserable that's a given. But why? The lack of work? Yes, that irritates me to no end...not that I have this incredible work ethic anyways...but it's nice to have a few dollars in one's pocket. Loose weight? Yes, that would be nice as well. I've been trying to watch what I consume and do my walks. I don't see a appreciable difference but I'll let others who know me make that call. My mental state? Well,I think it hinges on the above and the following. If your broke,alone and well,fat..you wouldn't exactly be Mr.Happy Go Lucky. Being alone...a bit of a sticking point for me. I've ranted and raved about this on my other blogs as well. We as human beings are a social animal. And last time I checked I'm human..one sec...yes,yes I am. On the weekends I pretty much stay sequestered in my apartment. I do go out for groceries,smokes a dvd rental here and there but that's about it. I'm not into the bar/club scene,at least not anymore. Willy Sutton was once asked "Why do you rob banks?" His response "Because that's where the money is". He was right of course. However do I have to change myself and put myself in a situation like bar hopping when it's not me at all. Yes I go out occasionally with my friend to this little lounge and hang out but I go there strictly to socialize and make small talk. Oh and the Jager isn't that bad either. But I don't go there with the expressed interest to meet anyone. I was told today on a lounge, when talking about myself...that I'm too nice. What's too nice? Is there a gauge that your set against? Anyways, this guy said, be aloof. Treat the women as if you don't care...women like that sort of stuff. treat the bitches like queens and the queens like bitches. Apparently it works as he's sitting in a lounge online as opposed to being out with someone. :) I take all this stuff with a grain of salt. Then conversely do I go about doing what I normally do...make small talk,use my self deprecating self of humor and so on? Or maybe I'm thinking (that burning smell again)way too much and what happens,happens. We'll see.....