Twisted Little Star's blog: "Disturbing News"

Sooo, my mother got her test results back and it appears she does have cancer. She will go in for surgery in a few days to have over 30 lymp nodes removed that were contaminatied by the cancer. She then will have to go through radation 5 days a week for 5 weeks. They are unsure of what kind of cancer it actually is. They have ruled out Lymphoma, Melonoma, and Breast cancer. The cancer board at the hospital is currently running tests and attempting to determine the type. I have only talked to my mother once since all this was discovered and we didn't actually talk, she talked around me to other people in the room. My sister asked her if she had called me and let me know what the results of the test were and my mothers response was "If I knew my mother was going through this I would call her" to which my sister respoded "If it was my daughter I would call her and let her know" Don't get me wrong, I'm concerned for my mothers health but I'm not devestated by it, if that makes any sense at all. I cried this morning but that was more for the fact o the way I am treated by my family. Like an outsider instead of a part of it. My father actually told me a few Easter's ago never to come back to his house unless I call first. Maybe it's just me but I always thought you could go home anytime, day or night no matter what? Sorry for rambling, I just need to get shit off my chest.