Adam's blog: "Take It Or Leave It"

The controlled distances of a life gone wrong Killing the rhyme, a broken song Turn off the lights and leave this hall You reached for the stars but you hit a wall A minute thought of doubt in your mind With it you force my hands to bind Continue on with your fashions of self Seek after contentment, your image of wealth Around in circles, Hell bent on success Your soul too often forced to a test Bow to a power of greater importance Stop pleading with feigned ignorance Your malady of guilt causes concern Gripping so desperately to that which you yearn And so you're destined time after time To give in to your heart at the smallest sign

Love turns to ashes as the story goes We've shared our ups and so many lows You helped me stand when I couldn't crawl Now you're not here as I start to fall How could giving up be so easy I guess you never even loved me So I ask when, when is it my turn? And when, when will my heart cease to burn? I pray but God turns his ear To leave me alone, my deepest fear I knew not to trust my heart this time Somehow I got lost in your sweet sublime How many more times will I let you in Each time I die a little more within Starting over seems so futile I should just lose myself in denial Now I ask when, when is it my turn? And when, when will my heart cease to burn? And I pray but God turns his ear To leave me alone my deepest fear

I think I've been better than this before I think I'll start over again once more I think you'll be missing me in the end I think we're both hurt but there's nothing to mend I think I may have lost what wasn't there I think what I lost was in your stare I think you've given up on who I am I think I've given up on being that man I think what is left is worse than insane I think I'm enjoying all of this pain I think I scare myself sometimes I think it leaves me in a sweet sublime I think I'm seeing an open door I think I'm stuck crawling on the floor I think you taught me how to lose I think I've learned now how to move I think I'm better cause you've gone away I think it's all gonna be okay

Conformities lost tresses of timeless trials, Taught to believe in buried treasure, Raised on restitution and covetous dreams, Bridled and bitted, lead on our way, Conscious will slowly taken to pasture, Eat from the fruits of others failure, Grow fat; grow old and somewhat content, Blinded to the torches of life's true intent, Never climbing always falling, Lost in aurora's light of denial, Where up is down wrong becomes right, Needless becomes wanted.

You stole my life away from me I'm not the person I was meant to be Caught in a dampened prison cell Forced into silence as I try to yell So it is true childhood can be sucked away Then what is left you grow to hate Come inside and close your heart Innocence stolen with a cancer filled dart Dry your eyes from this self despair Keep inside what you long to bare Blame everyone close to you The only way to win is to lose