StoneKiss's blog: "Sweetumz"

Her beauty shines,even though its not there. Does she even notice,does she even care. When she is without it,it saddens me to no end. How can I help her,where do I begin. To put something back,I would never take away. When will it return,I long for that day. Someday soon all things will be in place. And then her smile will return to that beautiful face. Ty Miki, Very Sweet

Yesterdays, My Wall's are chiped paint Like a old story, My floors are well walk on like my despare, Light that shines through to cover shadows of my past yesterday, Bring me that Light to covers up my frown, I smile when I smell cooking that makes me remember good and sad times, Just being one is Ok with me I look to the corner of my eye's, I rememeber those times but i see no one that I once knew, I see my floors well walked on like my past , I can't share my sight I can share my stories like peices of old chiped paint lying on the floor, Let me be that light that shines through to make you once rememeber, Rememeber that Despare Saddness are least of our worries, But to touch sight an smell are our memories, They are every thing that gives us the chance to relive our yesterdays, A Yesterday I can share with you. CPR 2007 James Landry.

MY TYPE OF FRIENDS: Those who bring balance to the world and my life. And I have already met them... thank you 2 my friends for being so sweet.... im outta here <3 I people that are opinionated yet open to various types of views on the world. Who appreciates the art of poetry, psychological nature, forensic science &/or criminology.... <3...Music lovers that play it LOUD, horror and martial art movie fanatics and adrenaline crazies set on world domination! lol.. fuckin rights!... WHO I DONT WANT TO MEET: Those that dont have set goals in life and goin no-where, gold-diggers, drama-lovers, and scandalous habitual liars The only bitch I could ever love... is karma...

MY WORDS TO LIVE BY: If you have a hidden agenda, leave me out of it. I would prefer for you to come as you are, and not hiding behind a mask Be unselfish, I yearn to see the innocence from this world of the tainted and corrupted, learn to forgive for those who's done you wrong. Let Karma play her role, and sit back and relax Let the moments consume you and channel that to mould it into something beautiful to share the world Some of you wonder: Why do nice girls finish last? My answer: We're the ones helping others push forward and standing behind our loved ones all the way. Therefore we don't, because there is no last place. And if we all do the same for each other, we stand infinite. Keep ya head up baby. A smile goes a long way. "Once a good girl is lost......proves she was never one in the first place"

Who says good girls cant have fun? Live your life to the fullest, work hard, play even harder, cherish your friends and family, love your man, and at the same time, keep your responsibilities and priorities straight. ....your probably curious on who i am.... .. Im just the girl next door you havent met... If you got to this section, you're probably interested in who I am. I'm nothing out of the ordinary, just someone who doesnt really ask for much, but the simple things in life. I live simply and independantly. I'm constantly on the go, but I try to make time for everyone. I never ask for anything more than what I already have in my life and I have great people who I hold close to my heart who inspire me to be a better person everyday. They make things interesting and keep me smiling. Mwah!! Just wanna say that I have already met the most amazing people in my life, they totally blow my mind, and make me jump for joy whenever I hear from them. But.. I can always make room for more.... If you want to know anything about me, feel free to ask. Isn't being human intriguing? The emotions, complications and what people do to justify themselves. I will not judge or be biased because, lets face it, we're all guilty of letting our emotions consume us, and what comes around always goes around whether you like it or not. Love that makes your heart beat like a jackhammer to the raging anger that overcomes you. Build it up or see it all come crashing down... if you haven't already been corrupted in some form or another by this world, just wait.. unless you are resilient enough to follow your morals and heart. If you cannot be in control, then at least be the one with the clearest conscience. ... just remember: things are only as complicated as you make them to be. I like to put all my emotions into my poems. They do not necesarily reflect what is going on in my life (though I have yet to dedicate them, when the time comes), I just want you to feel it as I have ...... ..so let it go and set yourself free... I love lyrics that make you wanna rock out, spontaneous actions that makes me laugh and a wild imagination that shocks me.. ..now show me what you got and impress me ..

Now this must come across everyone's mind, but its rarely discussed beyond a certain extent. To ask yourself the meaning of life is like asking the square root of pi, the answers are never short and simple, but it is interesting to know how people have come to their conclusion. No one is born knowing their outlook on life or the 'type' of person they will become, but is usually settled with one major life event or a divine intervention ie: finding religion. I'm not saying I discovered the meaning of life, but I've come across a few conclusions, and the type of people they are linked to… These are my theories in which people go through: Life's a bitch, then you die theory: You gotta do what you can because life is too short. Make that money, and make a name for yourself because you will never know when that day will come. The Kamikazee outlook. Its all about survival and being at the top. Whether it be the toughest, the richest, the hottest, you got what it takes and you know it. Pros: Determination, makin that money and getting your name out there with a high chance of being successful and to earn that respect that you worked so hard for. You're headstrong, and dont let anyone get to you. Cons: Your living life so fast that you dont stop to think about the little things in life or the toes that you have to step on to achieve it. And at that time, it may already be too late to say sorry. My view: Life is a competition regardless, but its totally up to you whether or not to let this affect your life and the people within it. Stand your ground on your choices in life, but dont brush off any suggestions that your loved ones bring up. Life can be a game, but with any game, theres always a competitor who is stronger, quicker, prettier, smarter. Reality check. Focus on your individuality, humilty and what sets you apart from the rest. The Reincarnation Theory. At one point or another one will figure out whether or not their past life was of a mighty king, or just an ant just trying to survive. Or perhaps these past lives were all human. You are born into the same path in which you go through the same stages and emotional experiences as your past life. The way I see it, we all deserve the same amount of respect. Karma is a beeeitch, and you'll never know what's in store for you. Pros: Your careful about how you treat others, and are usually well loved by almost everyone. Or 2) if you had previously lived as a well-respected being, all things fall within your lap without trying. Cons: You get so caught up in doing the right thing that you forget about yourself sometimes. There comes a time when you have to stand up for the little guy, and also a time to stand up for youself. or 2) if you were a bad person, all those things follow and history repeats itself. My view: The way I see it, all things continue in repetition until a force changes its course. And every person you deal with is a force to be reckoned with. If Karma does not hit you now, then you just might have to wait another lifetime to see. Karma is bitch, and her revenge is unexpected. Red Pill, Blue Pill Theory: Probably the most ludicrous of all philosophies, but hey, you never know. For those who have seen the Matrix movie, you know exactly what im talking about. We are living more than one life. That maybe we have another life in another dimension. Or it being a mirror image of you, yet the opposite of who you are. A good person, but is actually sinister and evil. Or someone who's notorious, is actually an angel in disguise. Pros: It travels deep into your subconscious. The person that you never thought you were to come into realization. Cons: Perhaps you just have to lay off the drugs. My view: Its probably just a silly thought. But I think our dreams have a message for us. To show us fears that are not normally realized while awake. Creativity and imagination makes life more interesting, but dont let it get too wild or people might just have to suggest the psychiatric hospital. At this point in time, I think everyone at one point or another can relate to one of these theories. But its always fun just to think about it. Feel free to post your thoughts.

let me be your poison and enrage that timid heart nerves set afire, let the poison course through your vein until it becomes an addiction so good its almost sinful lost without contrast to know of pleasure and pain i'll corrupt you in ways that you have never dreamed tear your body apart in ways you will never feel exploit the innocence until there is nothing left lost between heaven and hell, fantasy so surreal lose yourself and should death follow, let him come guilty pleasures shall fall within such heavenly bliss of every scar, symbolic of my tainted love for you and be a martyr of my desire, sealed with a kiss by Lakana *sigh i know, i know... but i cant do the romantic stuff... still trying!

Religion I think it is all brainwash. Lets be honest, there are thousands of religions in this world and there is only one real answer. In that case, does every religion, but one have false beliefs and are going to go to hell? Very doubtful. I also find it hard to believe what I cannot see. I think there is life after death, but I do not think there is one man above us who controls it all, that is impossible. Just because a book says so, does not mean it is true. Religion is just a series of altered stories over time in order to give human beings faith. I think if youre genuinely a good person, good things will happen to you in the long run. Everyone should believe in whatever they want, be different, have your own religion. Nothing is wrong, as long as you believe in SOMETHING. Abortion I am pro-choice. If a 20 year old single female is pregnant and does not have adequate funds or proper shelter to support the child, then abortion is a good choice. I guess I would say I choose death over misery. If the child is going to be completely miserable and live a shitty life, because his/her mother was too young to raise him/her then I think abortion is the way to go. Not only would the child suffer, but the mothers life would be over and disadvantaged as well. Cheating The main point of a relationship is the fact that two people are committed to each other and no one else. If you are going to cheat on your boyfriend/girlfriend than what the hell is the point of being in a relationship? Is it because people are too helpless by themselves that they just need that person for reassurance that they are not alone? Grow up and stick to your wordif youre going to cheat on someone, at least tell them you did so or break up with them. It is also unsafe; you could spread diseases to someone who does not deserve it. It is also unfair to the faithful person; because I am sure they were given chances to cheat, but turned them down because they are faithful. I also despise girls who get back together with a guy who cheated on them. Havent you heard once a cheater always a cheater? The only way a cheater will stop cheating is if he/she finally looses someone they actually loved and DOESNT get them back, but in a lot of cases, I think some people just suck and will always be cheaters. Karma It runs the world. Be careful. What goes around definitely comes around. Money I dont want to be filthy rich when Im older. I want enough money to support my family and be able to buy things I need, but not all the things I want. What is there to look forward to if you dont have goals to reach and you have everything you ever wanted? I also think money gives people too much power. It makes people snobby, cocky and self-centered. In reality, money is only paper, it cant buy love or buy happiness. I know, how cliché? Trust I really don't think you can trust anyone. Everyone lies. Haven't you told a lie to at least every person you know? I know I have. What it comes down to, is how bad the lies are. It's ok if someone fibs or exagerrates, but it's another story if they really lie. It's up to you to decide what is worth keeping and what is worth leaving. Beauty You can't convince someone to think someone else is beautiful, so cliche, but beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I personally think people's flaws are what make them beautiful. When someone has something that stands out that no one else has, I usually think they are georgous. Racism There is really no need to be racist. If everyone was the same, life would be pretty damn boring. Do you really want everyone to have the same beliefs as you? Do you really think it's necessary that everyone has the same skin color? I think peope who are racist are usually insecure with themselves, because they feel the need to think someone is lower than them in order to make themselves feel good. It's pretty pathetic. And don't tell me the whole 'well, I had an encounter with a ______ person that made me hate them now.' That's bull. You can't categorize an entire race for the action of one person in that particular race. Open the box, difference is wonderful

FEMALE PRAYER Before I lay me down to sleep, I pray for a man who's not a creep, One who's handsome, smart and strong One who loves to listen long, One who thinks before he speaks, One who'll call, not wait for weeks. I pray he's gainfully employed, When I spend his cash, won't be annoyed. Pulls out my chair and opens my door, Massages my back and begs to do more. Oh! Send me a man who'll make love to my mind, Knows what to answer to "how big is my behind?" I pray that this man will love me to no end, And always be my very best friend. Amen. MALE PRAYER I pray for a deaf-mute nymphomaniac with huge boobs who owns a liquor store and a bass boat. This doesn't rhyme and I don't give a shit. Amen

I enjoy expanding my horizons. I can be easy to get along with or very hard to put up with. Personally, I'd have to recommend never screwing with me, EVER. I may not always come off as a really nice person, but I AM. If you are truly my friend and I care for you in any way, I would break my back to give the world for you. However, I will be the most evil bitch ever if you purposefully screw me over. I can make life hell for people. Don't AT ALL think I am a slut, I just have a terrible mouth and I'm a touch perverted SOMETIMES. I do not pass the goodies out like Halloween candy to just anyone. If I would actually act out everything I talk about and say to people, then you could call me a slut. I get annoyed easily. In the past, I used to get attached too quickly, yet lately I tend to let go very fast. I'm weird, and people tell me that alot. I can get pretty paranoid, and my true friends that know me well will say that I'm (slightly) neurotic. I am hard to follow in a conversation and I swear that I have ADD. I don't have many close friends that are female and I don't usually like females as friends. I like to argue, and don't always take me seriously when I do, you'll wind up crazy. Only people that I truly like can get away with calling me by a nickname. My friends are like air to me, I cannot go one day without talking to atleast two or three of them - I'll feel too weird. I am a hypocrite, and my hypocrisy knows no bounds. I NEVER take my own advice. I'm rarely ever serious. I can find humor in absolutely anything (trust me) if the timing is appropriate, but mostly when it's not. I am extremely sarcastic and cynical. I love irony. There are a lot of people who don't understand my sense of humor and say I can come across as a bitch because of that lack of understanding. But I'm not a bitch, atleast not all the time. In fact, I'm not happy unless those around me that I care about are happy. I'm a total dork; just ask my daughter or my close friends. I don't do things for attention, I do them because they are fun. I dance to my own tune. I like to party like a rock star with a new liver. I'm not afraid to be myself as long as I don't have to open up too much. I never worry about, and don't give a damn, what other people think. I can't stand people who lie and are fake. I can't stand ignorant people that refuse to be educated. I'm very intolerant of bullshit, and I will rarely bite my tongue. And my "inability to remain silent" gets me into trouble quite a bit. I hate guys that play games - they are just little boys in the bodies of grown men. I shed my skin and show my true self to very, very few people because its so hard to find genuine and true people today. I hate exposing myself only to wind up getting burned by someone who I thought was sincere but only wanted to play games. I'm extremely suspicious of human nature. My walls will not come down anymore. If they do, it is usually because I know you extremely well, or if I have been drinking, and that's usually when I need a shoulder. I love spontaneity. I love adventure. I love the outdoors. I love staring at the stars at night and the clouds during the day. I love sneak attacks and I love scaring the piss out of people. I love to fuck with people. I love challenges - the right challenge can be a total turn on. I love having awesome friends in my life that will get out of bed, drive for an hour (or more!!) at 2am to pick me up and take me home when I am drunk, and not once try to take advantage of me OR complain about the drive. I love having big strong guys as friends that will carry me out of a bar so I won't get arrested. I'm not a morning person, but I love getting phone calls in the middle of the night with either a friend or a boyfriend on the other end saying "Hey! Wake up!! I couldn't sleep and was thinking about you. Remember the time when we (blahblahblah.....)" I love text messaging my oldest friend Metallica lyrics that make me think of her in the middle of the night. I LOVE surprises, no matter how small. I love getting little presents "just because". I love getting drunk with good friends and TOTALLY letting go of my inhibitions. (Haha, "people learn things when I drink") I love looking at myself the mirror. I love thinking about the only two men in my life that never broke my heart - and I hate thinking about the way I broke both their hearts, and I regret not saying the things I should have. I love the little things in life. Just - moments. Things that a random person does to catch your attention. Smiles from strangers. Making someone smile. I love laughter. Babies. First kisses. Holding the hand of someone who is dying, comforting their grieving family. Helping people that really need it and refusing to take anything in return. Sunrises and sunsets. Things you'll never forget. People you'll never, ever forget. I have been disappointed, kicked around, used, walked on, and fucked over so much in my life that I used to make it a point to hold back on every single thing I'm capable of giving and showing. But I'm working on letting that go. It's still hard to give any one man 100nymore even though I might want to. A friend of mine always tells me that I have an amazingly beautiful, warm heart, and we argue about it because now I disagree. I have to be reminded of things constantly because my short term memory blows (did I already say that?). I'm optimistic, yet the glass is always half empty at the same time. I'm very confident the majority of the time. I'm indecisive. I'm very blunt. I've been known to take honesty to an extreme. I hate excuses and I hate when people break promises. I can't stand weak people. I get aggravated when people are inconsiderate and do things like don't push their chairs in or return phone calls. I can't stand a man that won't open a door for a woman. I hate it when people think that I am spiteful or that I hate them. I hate my scarred smile and the scar I have between my eyes. I don't give in to peer pressure. I hate it when people try to control me, but there are very few people (only 2) that know how to "pull my strings" just the right way and these people can control me and get me to do what they want me to do, and I hate that they know my weaknesses. I'm not shy, but I've been told I come off as shy, and that's usually because I'm being very observant, very self-absorbed, or because (rarely) I'm set back by my surroundings. I've developed my skill of annoying others into a pure form of art, and I am extremely proud of that. I hate romance but love getting flowers and doing things like making out by a lit fireplace or taking a walk under the stars. I am EXTREMELY affectionate. Told ya I was a hypocrite. When I date someone, he is my best friend. I love spending time with that person I'm with even if I can't, don't or won't love him.