akasha6963's blog: "SURVIVORS STORY"

First i would like to thank God for giving me the chance to sit here and write this blog....my story is not to be taken as a pity one it is a great story of life and courage and fighting....when i was 27 i was told that i had stage 3 cervical cancer and then when i went in for surgery they found breast cancer but it was in the lymph noids and i would have to have chemo and radiation to fight this demon i was very scared and young and i had just got engaged to the man of my dreams....and to find all of this out this man stood next to my side and took care of me, but then another tragic hit 9-11 and he was shipped out to iraq to fight for our freedom and i was here fighting for my life not knowing if he was coming home or when he would but this demon was really taking a toll on my body and my soul and i was losing my long curls and he was going to come home to a bald wife we got to video chat a few times and talk on the phone and even though i didnt not have my hair he always called me his beautiful wife and that God was going to get us thru this hard time....On dec 25th 2001 i see a car pull up as the kids were opening presents and i was trying to get to the door before they did....the CO told me that he had some news that he needed to let us all know since his family was there with me during my fight i thought to myself out of all days you had to show up on Christmas to give us news and i started to cry, i knew that it was not good news just by the way the chaplin came in after the CO did as i sat there on the couch with his blanket draped over my legs and his mother and sister on either side of me holding both my hands they tell us that he was killed in the line of duty that day i felt so much anger and pain.....for many years i never put a christmas tree up and i hated Godfinally  for taking him from me but after a long talk with his mom and a few others it was not Gods fault this happened and i had to learn how to love again... i have never found my "true" love and i need to just open my heart and let him find me cause i know one day soon he will come around. Now that i had beaten the demon we call cancer after fighting for 3 years i was told in 04 that the cancer seemed to be gone...well we are going to fast foward to the year 2009 and i sit in the doctors office once again sick and not feeling good and he tells me that my white blood cell count is off and we are going to run test they do the test and they find cancer once again this time it is in my stomach so once again we do chemo and different meds after different meds this goes on till may of 2012 and finally they tell me that the chemo is not working and the only option that i have is surgery i am thinking why me what did i do to deserve this so i said okay i had the surgery and i am feeling better two months later i get told i have stage 2 breast cancer again and i am really going nuts by now thinking my God this is crazy this is the 4th time i have had cancer what did i do but i know that God for some reason has something planned for me cause as of october 2013 i am now cancer free and have a story to tell yes this is just a lil bit about my story but i have alot more to tell i just want someone to want to get to know the real me....thank you for taking time to read my blog and i hope that you will leave some comments

thank you agian and Gob bless