Do you ever think just maybe you weren't ment to be here Maybe you were just a mistake that wasnt supposed to be Have you ever had a question on your mind about why and how you've made it this far if you were never supposed to be here...allive...? But then again how do you know anything maybe you were expected maybe life just sucks whether you were wanted or not maybe we were all wanted but theres a chance we weren't Will we forever have this question... AND NEVER FIND THE ANSWER...? i mean this in so many ways did my parents ever want me was i just a consequence of what they did in the dark am i now being blamed for living ? i get treated like an extra piece of baggage that they never wanted and they always say a drunk person speaks a sober mind... and if that is true then i know exactly how my parents feel about me and in knowing that i dont want to live if i was such a mistake then why should i keep on living? if i was such a mistake then no one would care if i took my own life and what about this god figure if he already has all of our lives planned out couldnt there be mistakes i mean people like me cant there be people here on earth that werent supposed to be. their lives were never planned because they werent either but then again maybe you were planned maybe you just got stuck with the left overs you got stuck with a life that will never make you happy what am i supposed to do...? do i keep on living and just deal with all this hurt, pain and feeling that i just dont belong or do i take my life to stop suffering... to stop making other people suffer so many questions and i can figure no answer but should i be looking for an answer? maybe my answer was already given to me when i got the urge to ill myself and end it all maybe that was the answer i was so desperately searching for i have come to a fork in the road which way should i take which way will i take who will ever know do you ???
