Uniqueness's blog: "¿¿Success...to be or not to be¿¿"

I have more than once
given my heart
to someone who didn’t want it
I have more than once
felt the sting of rejection
as my desperation
met cold

and still
I wouldn’t change
the ensuing
horrors I lived
from hurling
my heart
at doors closed
because I am proud
of who I became
through it all
and proud
isn’t something
I’ve ever really been

Receiving praise
that never felt deserved
because I never knew for sure
what earned it
because I always knew the dark places
I went when alone
but now
I feel differently

Now I feel
deserving of praise
because I worked hard
on the inside for it.
There is something magical
that can happen
when you live through
what you didn’t think you would live through

There is something profound
that can happen
when a person you want most
doesn’t want you
You have to choose yourself
or check out
and while checking out
seems like an option for many
I am wired to fight not flee
i am designed to grind not freeze
more likely to die trying
than peacefully

I finally faced
the war on the inside
and it’s been
a beautifully brutal battle
that i’m getting is never truly over
but we have have covered
some serious ground
myself and I

I feel good
about that
I feel like I did good
I am good
funny
that another's no
became MY yes

I just know
I finally feel proud
in a way no one
can take from me