i don't know whether it's another pms of mine but damn am i being super SENSITIVE or was it i am under treamendous stress. i hate almost everything about myself now and i don't know why.
WTF with my father, why does he have to bring every little damn thing home for me to do. i can't even finish the stupid job. why can't he bring accurate information home. was it because he pay me i got to do this shit. i feel like shouting on top my lung now. i feel like asking him to do my thing and get me y am i getting tension all the time. babies crying, mom screaming, my fucking sister complaining no car for tuition, no money, my mother complain no money. why do i need to hear all this?? my aunt complaining about us not making money. wtf am my father doing! Fucking father doing fucking thing. can't even understand the importance of document accuracy. i feel like shit. i feel like i just want to die. i just want to commit suicide. was it all about life?? i wonder. some are destiny to be happy and rich and some are just destiny to be somewhere in the whole wide world. no one want to be beggar. everyone grows up wanted a better life but only percentage of people will do so. wtf right. god, is he there?
Friends to turn out on u too i supposed. Fucking brother say he would come and darn he did not. didn't even answer my damn fucking sms. When wanted money will come for me. want to pay telephone bill come for me. who will say i am good. no one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was just merely of 'omg wat happen to you! how come u put on this weight' she tell me she is hurt and a true fren shouldn't judge and pick a stupid fight out of it and end this little damn fucking friendship. i wonder any other hell thing she talk to other fren about this. So i wonder what u call a comment 'omg u are so tiny! or should i say a fren shoudn't judge as well. so i guess to the end of the day all this so call fren should be ignore. they are not so true after all. i wonder what stories she makes up this time and who ever who listen must be a stupid asshole fren also. so y do i got to bother! sorry i got problem that i didn't tell u that i got to handle and got to turn down your clubbing and yc seasion. problem money la babe, working problem andn family problem too. so if you are true fren you will ask and not judge and not get angry and u will be fucking understanding about one situation.
