secretxsong's blog: "stuff"

Btw, I forgot to mention this earlier... After talking with John last night about a lot things, I am going to dye my hair back to a "normal" color. Maybe not quite my natural color, but close to it. I might stop at the store tonight to pick up the color... if not tonight, then definitely within the next few days. I need to start focusing on what is coming up ahead of me and prepare myself for the future. As much as I love having purple hair, I'm getting to the point in my life where I need to be more "socially acceptable" so that I can better myself. I'm also in the process of moving into my new place. Tom (my new roommate) is still painting my room. He started yesterday but the paint didn't cover up all of the old stuff so he's putting up another coat. I hope to be able to move my furniture in today/night but I may just crash on the extra bed tonight and move my furniture tomorrow when I get off work... *crosses fingers* we'll see.

I've made a lot of mistakes in my life and I will be the first to admit that. Although I made these mistakes, I know that I have been tolerant, understanding, and very hurt throughout the entire ordeal. I wanted nothing more than to feel "normal" again. I wanted to actually wake up in the morning with a smile on my face and my cheeks NOT streaked with tears. For the longest time, I felt like it was never really MY home too. I felt like it was too hard to really open up to this person like I used to because their attitude toward me had changed a lot over the years. I felt that anytime I expressed my real emotions, it was just blown off. I *do* have my priorities straight. Trust me, I do. For the longest time, he was my #1 priority despite the hurt I was feeling. This time, my #1 priority is ME. I'm not going to sit here and type out everything because it would be a waste of time and the last thing I need right now is even more drama. He was my lover, then became my best friend, and always was my hero, but under these circumstances, I have no choice but to say good bye. I will always care for him because of the history we have together, and I hope that one day we will be able to be friends again... but until then, I wish him all the best and good bye...

So... went to see Harry Potter today with Alec. We watched in IMAX 3D... OMG. It was great :D hehehe... Now... if you know me, you know I LOVE Harry Potter :) I've read all of the books (well I'm almost done with the new one) and I own all of the DVDs and have now seen all of the movies. I enjoyed it A LOT :P So... Now all I need is to see The Simpsons Movie. :) YAY I'm a Geek!

I hate packing.. Just thought I'd let you know... I have too much stuff!

Ok... so I've been talking about moving for awhile now... I am actually moving on Friday. I'll be in S. Aurora for awhile :P I need to finish packing... my bedroom right now is full of boxes! oy. I don't like packing... it makes me sad because I'm forced to go through things I haven't looked at in a long time. I'm excited about moving, but at the same time, I'm nervous... I'm leaving a comfort zone and stepping into a new chapter of my life. Another hassle is changing everything over to the new address... I'm also going to get a P.O. Box. I had a lot of trouble with getting my mail when I first moved up here... My dad sent me one of those pre-paid credit card things with a couple hundred bucks on it and it was never delivered... plus a few other things - cards and what not. I truly believe it was the mail carrier. I complained to the post office, but not much was done... I did start receiving my mail after that but I was dismayed at the service. *shrug* We'll see how that goes. Anyway, I never really realized that I had so much crap. I don't remember bring half this stuff up here from TX. And I left A LOT of stuff back in TX. One day I'll have my parents ship it to me... or I'll take a drive down to visit and bring it up here... but quite honestly, I think my parents like holding on to some of my stuff because then it doesn't seem like I'm really gone. I'm my mom's oldest daughter and my dad's youngest daughter... I think they are still having a hard time letting go. Even though I've been up here for almost 2 years. meh. I think I'm gonna end this here... *smooches*

27 years old now. Boo! But I *DID* Have a fantastic celebration for my birthday!# I wanna thank: John Alec Lynn Crystal Monica Colette Ash Danielle Alec's mom My mom and dad And everyone else that sent me birthday wishes and "gifts" and made my birthday FUCKING ROCK MITTENS!@# Seriously this was probably the best birthday I've ever had. *smooches* to all!# I'm slightly sunburned but it should go away in a couple days. My arms aren't red anymore thankfully. I wish I could repeat Friday night and Saturday over and over. :) I'm happy.

Remember that date. It is the most important date of the year. Why is that you ask? Because its MY BIRTHDAY! *nods* one day away from becoming an old woman. The BIG 2-7. Holy crap-nuts. Colette and her friend are about 2 hours away. WEEEE! I still don't know if I'm going to be able to go to the show in Chicago tonight though. I'd like to but *shrug* if I have to pass on going somewhere because I'm broke I'll deal with it. Tomorrow is WARPED TOUR!@# I hope its not too hot tomorrow. It'll suck if it is... Anyway, I need to shower in a bit and be ready for the girls when they get here. *rawr* I love 3 day weekends... especially for my birthday :D

Take that Sam Lam! I *am* Asian!

I met a guy yesterday that has a room for rent. Alec went with me to make sure he wasn't some psycho. The house is in S. Aurora... off of Ogden. (to those that know the area). Its a nice little house. I liked it. The rooms are smaller than I am used to, but no biggie. There's enough room for my desk, bed, and a TV. The guy was nice too. He's just waiting for his ex to move out. I'll most likely be moving there in August. Its definitely going to be a huge change for me. I think at first I might be a little uncomfortable, but I'm sure I'll be fine. Not to mention that Alec has already told me that I have to come back over to watch 4400 and Heroes and UFC. I know that will make things a lot easier. Anyway, today is a day of cleaning up. I need to bleach my bathtub and clean the bathroom and kitchen. I also need to clean out the bedroom and pack up stuff I don't use on a regular basis. Colette is coming down from Michigan over the weekend to see a band play in Chicago. Her and her friend are crashing here so we need to make the place a little more... presentable? hehe. Plus, my birthday is this weekend! Warped Tour :) I'm just excited to see one of my favorite bands, Alkaline Trio, play. I haven't seen them live in YEARS. They make me boogie and sing out loud. Anyway, in a bit, I need to start cleaning. Ick.

I am meeting someone that has a room to rent tomorrow at 5pm. He's in Aurora. He has 2 rooms, both are furnished - however I don't need the furniture. Its slightly farther from work, but I'll deal with it. I mapquest-ed the address and its still in the same general area. Hopefully this works out well. I just need a place to rest my head at night I guess. I know I'm going to be miserable anywhere I go, but its a start. We'll see what happens.