littlemamakin's blog: "stuff and stuff and more stuff in and around my life"

i came across old photos, shared with me by a friend. that night dreams of him raped me, over and again. his cursed giftedness enveloped me, his hidden secrets spread cross'd my thighs, and just as quick as sunrise, the cold sunlight kissed me, and left me alone again.

I am alone...not completely alone. I am with someone who I love, yet I feel all alone. I love him like a father, or brother....i love him as an indentured servant comes to love her master. I care for him, yet my heart...that part of spirit that loves, passions, desires,....is far away, waiting for another, on the windowsill of the home he left. So here am I...all alone...wishing on a dream.

What shame it is To long for a touch that might never be felt a gaze which may never be shared breaths that might never mingle from lovers about to kiss what time is wasted on such thoughts wondering what unspoken words were never uttered dreaming about the passionate embraces that could have been but how irresistible such daydreams can be the passion dreams the hopes the haunted wonderings what could have been if.

a return to the mundane Current mood: exanimate Category: Life Ah...finally I had a normal day...got up to the sound of the neighbors goats bleeting outside my front door,.... brought my littlekin to school, listened to official complaints over students wearing "the wrong" things to school and boys painting their fingernails black,.....got some official news about getting a facility built for the school and dealing with the host district.....got the scoop on when i'll be meeting Governor Richardson.....other officialnesses.....saw a car wreck....the usual. I went on a wild search for an important letter, and found it with page 5 missing. sooooooo....driving back to the office, the pile o papers in the back of my car that i have so neatly secured with the stuff in the back of the car starts to blow around in circles back there....i stop to catch the randomly freed papers before they float out the window.....it's a full set of those papers that i was looking for....not the ones i found mind you.....so, onward to my officialities........then run around the littlekin and harley. Sometime later after messing around online while i write very important documents, i figure i'll tempt the phone to ring and make myself a plate of spaghetti with garlic and herbs....got the pasta to the plate......*riiiing, riiiiing* ........i was not surprised, by the phone.....it is a given that no matter what time i eat, the telephone will ring.......i go to find the phone, and stepped right next to a scorpion...the bugger stung me........but my friend stepped on him before i got to feed him to my other scorpions that i keep on my kitchen counter.....went to bring something to the littlekin cause he's at harley's cause i'm still not done with putting the water lines to the shower...............got home, and fell asleep to the sound of the neighbors goats bleeting outside my front door.