I have hit rock bottom!! Am currently homeless and jobless, struggling to keep a roof over my kids heads each night. When your world crashes , it crashes hard. As you may or may not know have several health issues, which make getting thru each day hard enough as it is. But recently lost my job due to those health issues the next day lost the place where i was staying. Moved up to my mom's but could only stay there for 2 weeks, due to the rules of where she lives. So my children and myself moved into the womens she,lter here, so I could get assistance getting back on my feet. I followed all their rules, reported all my medications prescribed by my doctors, turned my meds into them, went to them to request my meds when it was time to take them. Went to the pain specialist for my chronic pain, who adjusted my pain medication to see if something else would work better. So I got the prescription filled, took it to the staff reported the change and turned in the bottle of pills. 2 days later the director decided to drug test me, I wasn't worried as had followed all their rules. She then tells I failed the test, apparently I tested positive for METH, which makes sense because the doctor put me on methadone for the pain. I tried to explain this to her but it wasn't good enough and was told that me and my children had to pack and leave when we returned from a doctor's appt. for the kids. See not only do I have health issues, both my kids that live with me ar Bi Polar, my youngest is also ADHD and has a learning disability. We come back from the appt. to find all our stuff crammed into trash bags. Well we couldn't fit everything into car in 1 load. Take it all to my mom's as have no where else to go with it. When we get back for the rest, it had been put outside on the sidewalk in front of the building. When I went to door to get our meds, she threatened to call the police to help us get our stuff and get of the grounds. I wasn't allowed to go check the room we had been staying in to see if they had packed it all, was barely allowed to get the food we had brought into there. So now not only am I freaking out about what we are going to do, but I have my kids freaking out and upset about where we are going to stay.
Luckly I had received my retirement check from my last job, so was able to pay for a cheep hotel for a few days, my dad has paid for a few days but is getting expensive to stay here. So am going to start calling all apartments in town to see what I can find. Hopefully something will turn up for us. Am waiting to hear back from Walmart about a job with them. Hoping and praying it somes thru!!!
Right now am trying my best not to have a nervous breakdown, the kids aren't the only ones that are Bi Polar, that goes with the fibromyalgia, migraines, insominia, RLS, IBS, anxiety, just to name a few. The chronic pain is the worst of it though.
So if your wondering or care thats why my status and mood has been the way it has been lately. Am accepting all prayers at this time.
My next wish is to possible get an adult life going. I mean I love my kids to death but they don't keep me company late at night. Not looking for the next "big love of my life", just someone to do spend time with and have fun. Well enough of my complaining, just felt the need to get it off my chest. Please don't feel sorry for me, just pray it all straightens out soon.
