Stressing tonight, Wondering why, asking Jesus to lighten up..Could my sins have been so bad that he would punish my child and knowing the answer as he died for my sins and still I ask again..Hating my thoughts and praying to Jesus to lighten the darkness that seems to surround my family at this time..My son is not doing so well it is as if I see him getting worse everyday and feeling so helpless not knowing what to do or how to do it..Looking for a kidney has become my life I cannot rest until I find one and hoping and praying that it works and that my son is strong enough to withstand a surgery of this extreme..He is getting weaker everyday..And then knowing that the doctors really dont know dont help much to ease my worry..I am freaking out here and my mind is going crazy..Please pray Jesus give me strenght to hold myself together as my son needs me strong....knightskitty
