so you dont want to hear about my good song? and you dont want to hear about how i am getting on with all the things that i can get done the sun is in the sky & i am by my lonesome so you don't want to hear about my good day? you have better things to do than to hear me say god its been a lovely day! everything is going my way i took out the trash today and i'm on fire... so you don't want to hear about my good friends? you dont have the guts to take the truth or consequence success is in the eye of the beholder and its looking even better over your cold shoulder i'm not suggesting you up and line me up for questioning but jesus think about the bridges you are burning and i'm betting that even though you knew it from the start you'd rather be a bitch than be an ordinary broken heart so go ahead and talk about your bad day... i want all the details of the pain and misery that you are inflicting on the others i consider them my sisters and i'd like their numbers god its been a lovely day! everything is going my way i took up croquet today and i'm on fire i picked up the pieces of my broken ego i have finally made my peace as far as you and me go but i'd love to have you up to see the place & i'd like to do more than survive i'd like to rub it in your face..... hey! its been a lovely day! everything is going my way i had so much fun today and i'm on fire god it's been a lovely day everything's been going my way ever since you went away hey i'm on fire..... i'm on fire... i'm on fire... so you dont want to hear about my good day?

It's been a hell of a long time since I've actually posted a blog. Well, gee golly, I guess its time to return the whining and the bitching that I always seem to be doing. Recent updates include: 1.) New Job 2.) Enrolled for School in August 3.)New Love interest blah blah blah blah and the best part is nothing works out like anything is planned, or how you want it to... I have a learners permit for driving a car, need it so I can go back to school.... and well... yeah so far the worst thats happened is I almost wrapped the car around a tree... Which would have been hilarious if you ask me cause I don't really care much for this world anymore.. or the douche bags that inhabit it. Uhmmm yeah... thats about it... My life... one steaming pile of shit after another. Congratulations I'm officially a failure. ~*Jackii*~

I'm having trouble trying to sleep I'm counting sheep but running out As time ticks by And still I try No rest for crosstops in my mind On my own... here we go My eyes feel like they're gonna bleed Dried up and bulging out my skull My mouth is dry My face is numb Fucked up and spun out in my room On my own... here we go My mind is set on overdrive The clock is laughing in my face A crooked spine My sense dulled Passed the point of delerium On my own... here we go

In psychology, mythomania (also known as pseudologia fantastica or pathological lying) is a condition involving compulsive lying by a person with no obvious motivation. The affected person might believe their lies to be truth, and may have to create elaborate myths to reconcile them with other facts. Among famous mythomaniacs in history was King Frederik VII of Denmark and Sir Douglas Conway of Suffolk. A pathological liar is someone who often embellishes his or her stories in a way that he or she believes will impress people. It may be that a pathological liar is different from a normal liar in that a pathological liar believes the lie he or she is telling to be true—at least in public—and is "playing" the role. He or she sometimes is seen to have a serious mental problem that needs to be rectified. It is not clear, however, that this is the case. It could also be that pathological liars know precisely what they are doing. Confused hashes of history and wishes are called confabulation. "Pathological liar" is a synonym for symptoms. Even though pathological lying is not recognized as a clinical disorder, legal court cases often require that the plaintiff prove that the defendant is aware that he or she is lying. This proof is most important in cases of slander and/or liability. Pathological liars often actually convince themselves that they are telling the truth, which in turn can alter polygraph tests and other questioning. Some have observed that when caught in a lie, pathological liars tend to become hostile or try to disregard the fact they lied; often playing it off as a joke. A compulsive liar will resort to telling lies, regardless of the situation. Again, everyone lies from time to time, but for a compulsive liar telling lies is routine - it becomes a habit and a way of life. Simply put, for a compulsive liar, lying becomes second nature. Not only do compulsive liars bend the truth about issues large and small, but they take comfort in it. Lying feels right to a compulsive liar. Telling the truth, on the other hand, is difficult and uncomfortable for a compulsive liar. And like any other behavior which provides comfort and an escape from discomfort (i.e., alcohol, drugs, sex), lying can become very addictive and hard to stop. For the compulsive liar, lying feels safe and this fuels the desire to lie even more. And like most addictive behaviors, compulsive lying is hard for the person involved to see, but it hurts those who are around it. Compulsive lying, if not stopped, can destroy relationships (for example, see why does he need to lie). Fortunately, compulsive lying can be dealt with through counseling or therapy. But, like many other addictive behaviors, getting someone to admit they have a problem with lying is the difficult part. Sadly enough, getting someone to recognize that he or she has a problem usually requires hitting rock bottom first.

Hiroshima, A shadow burned in time Nagasaki, naked baby melts alive Burnt flesh and rubble from sea to dead shore Such a hideous theatre of war But that was the end--Why? There are so many more that must die Is that not part of the plan? I must use the nukes I can't kill you all with my hands Hydrogen bomb, new signs of doom Thermo-nuclear, neutron bomb too... You say these devices must never be used I say you're mistaken, let's get to the fuse Bring--Bring back the bomb This is state policy, "by other means" Your life ends in terror, this is now decreed This is the twisting of bloody steel beams The bomb blows air backwards, there's no time to scream When they tested the A-bomb, they had a real fear The blast will destroy your sweet atmosphere But far more important as power increases Was wasting the planet in well-ordered pieces Bring--bring back the bomb Bring--bring--bring--bring back the bomb Bring back the bomb It's been far too long Summon the brazen war chariot Bring back the bomb what makes it so wrong? Release the beast, you can't bury it Hoi Hrup [8x] Why should the fire be shared with so few? Let bombs explode, 'cause that's what they do Nuke Mecca, New York, the Vatican too Give me a bomb, I'll drop it on you Why stop at only two? You showed the world just what it can do What a waste not to destroy Come play at war, man, and bring your best toy Who gives a fuck about a nuclear war? Let bombs explode, because that's what they're for Last minute warning, the sirens they sing Chaos, the reason, death, what we bring Humans now look to the sky! You worship missiles, yet they know no side I guess it was all a lie So grab ass with both hands, it's your turn to die Die--it's your turn to die [x2] Lies--they killed you with lies Die, human, die And while we're at it, let's go nuke Tibet Let's vaporize the oceans with glee Saving the whales an agenda for some Nuking them sits well with me Bring-bring back the bomb They know not what they do Bring-bring back the bomb Bring--bring-bring--bring back the bomb Bring back the bomb They know not what they do Bring--bring--bring back the bomb Bring--bring--bring--bring back the bomb Bring back the bomb it's been far too long Summon the brazen war chariot Bring back the bomb What makes it so wrong? Release the beast, you can't bury it Hoi! What makes it so wrong?

Tonight I'm going to see Gwar!!! (yay) And I'm dressed a zombie... w00t... and to all my friends .... I'm gonna brain you in the head with a rock and suck your brains out of the hole -bats eyes-

Warn your warmth to turn away Here it’s December, everyday Press your lips to the sculptures And surely you’ll stay (love like winter) For of sugar and ice.. I am made, I am made It’s in the blood, it’s in the blood I met my love before I was born He wanted love. I taste of blood He bit my lip, and drank my war From years before, from years before She exhales vanilla lace I barely dreamt her yesterday (yesterday).. Read the lines in the mirror through the lipstick trace: "Por Siempre." She said, “It seems you’re somewhere, far away" To his face. It’s in the blood, it’s in the blood I met my love, before I was born She wanted love, I taste of blood She bit my lip, and drank my war From years before, from years before Love like winter… Oh… Oh… Love like winter… winter… 3…4… It’s in the blood, it’s in the blood I met my love, before I was born She wanted love, I taste of blood She bit my lip, and drank my war From years before, from years before

*The New and Improved Ultimate About Me*

Basics: Name: Jackii Date of Birth: 01-23-1985 Birthplace: Crozer Chester Current Location: My Living Room Eye Color: Blue Hair Color: Black Height: 5'8" Heritage: German, Irish, French Candian Piercings: Snakebites, Septum, Nostral and Ears Tattoos: Kanji on my wrist, and cheshire cat on my back Favourite: Band/Singer: Robin Black and The Intergalactic Rockstars Song: Candy Flip Movie: Memoirs Of A Geisha Disney Movie: Peter Pan TV show: Venture Bros Color: Purple Food: Cheese Pizza topping: Extra Cheese Ice-Cream Flavor: Coffee Drink (alcoholic): Jagermeister Soda: Mnt Dew Store: WaWa Clothing Brand: No idea Shoe Brand: Vans, Etnies and Adio Season: Fall and Winter Month: May Holiday/Festival: Halloween Flower: Orchids Make-Up Item: Eyeliner Board game: Scene It This or That Sunny or rainy: Rainy Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate Fruit or veggie: Either Night or day: Night Sour or sweet: Sweet Love or money: Love Phone or in person: In Person Looks or personality: A bit of both Coffee or tea: Coffee Hot or cold: Cold Your: Goal for this year: Be Happy Most missed memory: Having A Family Best physical feature: My Eyes First thought waking up: Honestly, I thought about Bryon Hypothetical personality disorder: Bipolar Disorder Preferred type of plastic surgery: The Kind The Do On Discovery Health Sesame street alter ego: Oscar Fairytale alter ego: Dorian Grey Most stupid remark: I'm going to slap you in the cock with my face! Worst crime: None Greatest ambition: Prove everyone wrong Greatest fear: Being Alone Forever Darkest secret: I'm emotionally sensitive Favorite subject: History Strangest received gift: A magnetic Lobster Worst habit: My Impulsiveness Do You: Smoke: Yes Drink: Yes Curse: Yes Shower daily: No, every other day Like thunderstorms: Yes Dance in the rain: Yes Sing: Yes, terribly Play an instrument: Kinda Get along with your parents: No Wish on stars: Yes Believe in fate: Yes Believe in love at first sight: Unforunately Can You: Drive: Yes, but I have no lisence Sew: Kinda Cook: Yes Speak another language: French Dance: No Sing: Not Really Touch your nose with your tongue: Yes Whistle: Yes Curl your tongue: Yes Have You Ever: Been Drunk: Yep Been Stoned/High: Yep Eaten Sushi: Yes Been in Love: Yes Skipped school: Yes Made prank calls: Yes Sent someone a love letter: Yes Stolen something: Yes Cried yourself to sleep: Yes Other Questions: What annoys you most in a person? Little things Are you right or left handed? Ambidextrious What is your bedtime? Whenever Name three things you can't live without: Phone, Internet, Friends What is the color of your room? Sea Foam Green Do you have any siblings? 2 Brothers Do you have any pets? 2 Cats Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars? If I wouldn't get in trouble What is you middle name? Elizabeth What are you nicknames? Jackii Are you for or against gay marriage? For What are your thoughts on abortion? I'm paying for it, you suck it out! Do you have a crush on anyone? Yes Are you afraid of the dark? Yes How do you want to die? With A Bang What is the largest amount of popsicles that you have eaten on one day? No idea Would you take a bullet for the one you love? Yes What is the last law you’ve broken? I had a scheduel 2 drug In a Member of the Opposite Sex: Hair color: Whatever Eye color: Not Important, but they must be soulful Height Taller Than Me Weight Not too Important Most important physical feature: Eyes Biggest turn-off Irresponcibility, Immaturity, and Smothering

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