If I were able to turn myself inside out, spilling out the things that make me who I am, what would I find? How much of it would I keep? How much of it could I afford to loose before I am altered completely? Would I understand which parts were my true essence or foolishly discard them, proving not even I know the true me?
As I was doing this, could I trust myself, no matter how painfull, to make the right changes? Can I honestly say I wouldnt sugar coat it or mask the problems, completely ignoring whats good for me because its not the easy route? Would I polish myself into the form I was meant to be or try to conform to what I think people expect to see? Why do I ask so many questions? Is it lunch time yet?
I understand that this is mental masterbation but that is healthy, right? And in that case, does that mean that if I shake my head more than twice, I'm playing with it? If in mental masterbation, we reach a climax, a brain ejaculation, would that be what we call an ephinany? Are you sick of this rant yet? I am.
