OH DEAR LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today so totally sucks!! Its only 9:30 and I am ready to just leave. I hate being in this fucking place. I warned everyone that I am not doin good today and the stupid bitch starts in on me. FUCK YOU BITCH!!!! I will fucking leave and go home if this shit keeps up. I am depressed and I am having some health issues right now. I am goin to the dr next friday and hopefully we can get all of this stuff taken care of. I need to talk to someone and see if they can help me deal with all this shit. I have someone that I talk to now but he isnt always gonna be able to talk just cause I am having a bad day. I mean he has a life also and problems of his own.
Miss Jessica was being a pain in the ass last night. She woke up at like 2 am and Michelle and I both tryed to calm her and we couldnt. Tim came out and tryed to calm her and wasnt able to. He finally took her in his room and let her sleep in his bed with him and she calmed down and went to sleep. I hate the nights where I cant calm her and the only one that can is Tim. It makes me feel so bad that she needs a man and there isnt one there that can take care of her.
Bill~ I fucking hate you for what you have done to Jessica and I. You are a selfish fucking bastard!!! You think only of yourself and not the 2 kids that you are hurting. You have fucking dropped off the face of the earth and I am glad! I dont want you around me or MY kids. They deserve someone better than you. Someone who will be there for them and that will love them and care for them. Not someone who is gonna walk away from them and NEVER look back. You feel that pussy is more important than your kids. Just remember Bill she is a fucking child molester. And if she has done it once she will fucking do it again. I agree that people deserve second chances but not when they are child molesters and have kids of their of their own. They dont deserve anything!!!!
That didnt even make me feel better!!!
Its now 2:50 and I feel a lil better but not much. I am still pissy but I finally got to talk to my crush and he just makes me happy. All I have to do is hear his voice and I am smiling. :)) Im a dork I know haha!
