when you look up at the sky and see the stars... and the beautiful bright lit moon.. when you think that your alone.. with nobody there to veiw the night with you..when your at all wits end ready to give up hope.. ready to stop caring.. just think.. somebody is out there doing the exact the very same thing...somebody like me...
i want my rockstar...
i dont usually care about valentines day..ive never really gotten anything from it in past maybe a rose one time... im not usually very girly.. but eventually id like something that shows real meaning..something that wont die... something that isnt a last minute idea all the time...it wouldnt even have to be fancy.. im a pretty simple person..eventually id like to get to that ...that place in life that i find mr romantic.. that doesnt mean a girly man..although.. i could get a good laugh outta making fun of little things at times lol.. but seriously.. going into doing the cdl/truck driving thing... i doubt im gonna find or even get into something like that for sometime..
i find it hard to trust..simply starting a realtionship off the internet again..i find it hard to trust that who i get with will be loyal and faithful and honest..i find it hard to believe that if i fall for somebody that i can believe every or anything they say because they could be telling the same story to every other chick they talk to on the net i can handle flirting... thats pretty easy... but to be just one of the little ladys that you choose to talk to and flirt with and make plans with while other girls from your page are checking me out as if to wonder who the hell am i..or to hear other girls pop up and begin to start trouble jsut to see where it leads to.. thats a good way to discover where you stand with a person... to allow somebody else to beable to start shit... simply because they find it amuseing.. you know there are people that can find love from the internet.. thousands of people already have... so dont try to tell me that its a stupid idea or that its jsut lame.. because i dont think it is...I know that it is possible and that it can happen.. an old good friend of mine found his love here off of the fu and hes soon to get married.... if i cant find love in the real world with outthe help of a site on the comp im sure as hell willing to take another chance with love from the net..
Anyways.....
i dont really know the point of writing all of this.. i jsut fell like talking.. and who better to tell it to then to everybody here...well at least anybody thats willing to give a few mins of there time lol
So my birthday is in 15days.maybe 14now which ever u wantto consider it.....yup... the big 21... if anybody is reading this and actually gives a damn of intrest....id appreciate some love
night
