387692's blog: "spicSWAG"

I can’t begin to explain to you, who I am. I can’t begin to describe to you, what I’m about. Figure it out for yourself. Don’t label me because of your insecurities. I’m beautiful, with or without your opinion. I’m amazing, with or without your exception. Define what you see in your eyes. Explain in detail, how you perceive the world. I want to know. Am I nothing more than an image? Nothing more than a somebody? Or do I have a name? Personality? Face? Soul? Do I have anything in your eyes? Or am I just a somebody?

i hate you for making me love you and making me fall back in love with you repeatedly when you never had any intention of pursuing something real with me I hate you for lying and mistreating me I hate you for making me believe you cared for let alone loved me I hate you for making me laugh and I hate you for making me write these stupid poems while wiping the tears from my eyes I hate you for being able to move on as If what we had we was never meant to be I hate you for letting it be so easy for you to let me go to say fuck me I hate the fact that you’re never willing to fight for me I hate the fact that you’re so stubborn and you let me go so easily I hate the fact that my love for you is so unconditional while yours is a mere memory I hate that I still view us as we and u view us as what we used to be I hate you for not being able to let go and forgive me I hate you for not being here with me making me hate you even more I hate the fact that you don't miss me I hate the fact that Im writing you this poem and your thoughts of me are even less than the memory of what use to be. . . --diana marie o8-25-o6

Why is it so easy to FALL into love but so hard to fall OUT of it? Why do we sometimes allow our hearts to get broken and just sit back and watch it happen - basically? How can you care about someone so much, just to see them NOT feel the same way about you? Why is it so hard to let reality set in and realize that you currently cannot have the one that you truly do love? How do you deal with the fact that the person that you love can date other people with no problem at all? Why is it so hard to go on with your everyday life when everything is so up in the air when it comes to your love life? How can you go through SO MUCH SHIT in the past and still have the strenght to rise above it all and still continue to have feelings for the one that you love? How can someone have such a strong hold on your heart and you're not able to do anything about it? This message is just a compilation of my thoughts... therefore it is NOT directly about anyone or anything.. just some thoughts and feelings..that's all. --diana marie o8-25-o6

i describe my self creative imaginitive ambitous artistic eclektik highly elevated state of mind unique gifted blessed from the above knowledge wisdom down to earth open minded awake to the truth, in my zone nobody matterz to me but the true in my circle no time for demonz in disguise filled with lies and deceat tryin to bury me 6 feet deep before i recieve true enlightment from jehovah with the key he gave us a gift to a place of everlasting life and freedom from the beast 's reach only (ha-wah)'z true knowledge and wisdom can open our eyes to see the things that are to become i stand against ignorance its only true stupidity to deny the truth in the scriptures of the true master, father and son only the elighten ones will know where im coming from those who stand out from others and dont fall into the deception of the wicked one and his followers for my life will be tough so i must maintain alert at all times and not let the persecution of the wordly engulf me and let me fall for i stand tall and gratefull for my strength because it comes from above and his great sacrifice i love my true makers with all my heart and soul the promise they gave us to behold. --diana marie o8-11-o6

How could i ever be so stupid,to be torn over you,you always put me off for hos,Never thought that I knew. Tryna hide the obvious,like im just some other chick,go tell that shit to your hos, that be all on your dick. Mighty strange how shit just seems to happen to u, Its called Karma baby,damn wat the fuck did you do? Everytime I turn around you getting fucked in the game,Seems like you got so many hos,you cant remember they names. Don’t get me caught up in ya shit,I don’t have time for your lies,Lied to me and said you loved me,looked me straight in my eyes. Wonderin about ya puta,you fucked up in your past,you gonna fuck with the wrong 1,and get a foot in your ass. Everybody try to tell you,you to stupid to listen,and your brains a fuckin puzzle,and some pieces is missin. One day you’ll understand,but now you playin with life,you’ll learn your lesson,when a bitch is at your throat with a knife. Looks like you got alot of growin up to do,im movin on to someone better,im not fuckin with you. --diana marie o8-11-o6

You Made Me This Way You say that I'm cold-hearted and that I don't care But did u ever stop and think how I got there Lets take a trip down memory lane So I can introduce u to my best friend pain Think back to when I used to be sweet And with warm kisses is how I would greet I used to hold doors and keep champagne in ur cup But u know what bitch, u can wrap it up Now ur eyes are filled with tears of despair But u can cry me a river cuz I really don't care I'm immune to ur tears cuz its nothing new Don't u remember boy, Diamond's cry too And I've shed enuff tears to last me a lifetime This is my final answer and u don't have a lifeline So on those cold nights when ur feeling all alone Remember it was u that turned my heart to stone Cuz behind every heartless Diamond is the boy who ripped it out And u sweetheart are guilty beyond a reasonable doubt So save ur appologies cuz I don't care for sorrow I have no compassion for u bitch becuz u made me HOLLOW!!! --diana marie o8-o4-o6.

You like my touch, my feel, my sex To describe my wetness would be complex You like the way I moan real deep Or the way I wear you out to sleep You like the way my ass feels in your palms And the way my body feels wrapped in your arms Or the way my pussy feels around your hard dick The wetness, the tightness that makes you cum quick. You like the arch in my back that pushes my ass out Or the deepness of my pussy that makes you wanna shout Or the way I cream all over when you hit that spot Or the way I ride you when I get on top You like the way I tighten my pussy walls Damn I love those 2 am calls You like the way I give you head The way it makes your dick as hard as lead You like the way my ass looks from the back Fuck me so good its like im having a heart attack You like how wet my pussy feels on your tongue Clit so swollen like I got a stung. Fuck me harder let me feel that dick Fuck me harder with your God made stick Deeper in my pussy knock the bottom out Deeper inside a me let me scream and shout Penetrate my temple, take my cherry Fuck me like a slave, Ride me like a ferry These are fantasies of total satisfaction Don’t cum too Quick, its only a verbal penetration. --apic