hitchingpost's blog: "soulful essays/lists/poems"

Flower Mound Backpeddles alias a Near Cure ( C 2005 ) Josie Roberts. THIS IS INSPIRED BY PHOTO OF BEAVERTAIL CACTUS FLOWERS. Beaver cactus comes into my life again It seems to believe we are an excellent blend. Not quite perfect but shares with yellow rose { Of Texas } ancient musical mists & twists of do-si-dos. I'm so sorry I know so few walkaways That I can't say hello / goodbye with a flower. It's a swoon thingie jinx jinx glitch quirk Of not knowing the golden mode of innuendo flerk. Brash wishing wishing will well near cure But ditzy doodle bug is a poor lure -- And when fishing for compliments folks dislike sporty ape bullshit They just blew my strongest utmost flower power gambit. More like the only one, so it's embarrassing and/or lewd But I can only admit in hospital mutual company That this babe's got full force with bells and whistles One of my 8 perfectos of which is claimed none exist. I don't have a restart clause outside of high mania Because my reconcile or bail blankety blank meters apparently are panicky. i.e To a crushed & broken Gypsy Rose Lee The leeway to bonk noggin please do it is true blue merry mirth with glee. It is politically incorrect to mix modes of expression And off the wall is the best best description unless -- UNLESS I am their utmost desire So I am here waiting like a thrown away beautiful flower On a laisy daisy pushing up rainbows funeral pire. Those last remarks gents & ladies say when not gutsy -- How could such an absurdity cross your mind? Or even any one other than their exact style kind of humor? If only humor were a passion flower our nomenclatures wouldn't recede and there would not be this horrendous bind. But bliss fades and angst & anguish carries the day Of recompense for humanity's mistakes come what may We accidental mistake miracle along spreading flower seeds Of cut the mustard humming soothing backpeddle quizz.

WHAT GETS ME THROUGH MOST OF LIFE ( C 2004 ) Josie Roberts Especially relevant items to me are listed below in RED. 1. happiness mottos 2. daily quotes 3. joyful funeral songs 4.combo fairy land upgrades / standins essays I have written, only a few. 5. mystical moments 6. hiddenness insights of consolation 7. goodwill guesses of personality traits fraud 8. slappig silly results with no permanent damage 9. science of alternatives co-existing as same thing 10. cognitive trade secrets 11. unconscious lies & beliefs to get over, as listed in a book to be checked off easily 12. negligent & cruel sham identification 13. accidental mistake miracles 14. good skeleton keys in closet 15. clout torment endured... 16. Doodlebops TV show -- harmless absurd beliefs 17. mood music 18. point of no return spirals & traps enslave 19. our bodies fighting against ourselves instead of friendly unconscious 20. overloads in environment around us leading to forget -- which kind depends on personality, as discussed in a book 21. feedback & share alike for legitimacy 22. Biblical assurances 23. Biblical prophets 24. on track, concentration for job, v.s. receptive open -- how balance ? 25. disagree about past facts 26. mobsters have good talents as well 27. names/titles of GOD and men/women 28. generaions 29. "my type" knowing my own mind 30. accountability, buckling down 31. suitable trade-offs 32. overeducated mixed nomenclatures of myself cause confusion in others 33. avoid knocking head against wall by bite my tongue or translatte to worthy 34. case work --> always on YOURSELF 1st.. 35. avoid blackmail &bribery which are 2 sides of the same coin 36. forget using trickery 37. understanding isn't near perfect, but it is almost the only thing going.

Quizzical Mysterious Knowledge which is mostly unconscious to me. alias FISHING FOR MANEUVER ROOM. ( c 2203 ) Josie Roberts as developed from participation in manic-depression support group. 1. what causes anxiety to be erratic unpredictable and scarry ? 2. legit, feasible -- limit of understandings. What % is good enough NOW ? 3. concise descriptions 50/50 true to the bone and 110% right/light good to go. 4. when to admit or explain mental illness that seems better if pretend it is a joke so they remain calm 5. crystal clear workarounds sometimes possible, even in dire straits -- if have crutch support. 6. medication maneuvers customized to fit 4 scenarios 7. how to retain credibility when mulling it out, doodle brainstorming & muddling on through 80% of it. 8. side-effects hidden in plain sight that are a bit embarrassing to someone

AnxietyPersonified. Hospital Discussion contribution on "anxiety" major points: 1 for the money, 2 for the show your work, 3 to get ready/willing/able, 4 to go gung ho. What does anxiety consist of ? A. Dread unknown from ambiguous awkward coordination of trusting & trustworthy B. Regret/false guilt of past mistakes hidden or foolishness and endless replay memories about blame usually bogus C. Hinder goodwill at the NOW or NEVER point, due to it's rickety vague nature of risk of meagre CLOUT. D. Hesitate to state opinions / preferences in face of glare, stare, dare E.Wishing priorities would quit slapping us silly when we are giving our all level-best with almost integrity PLUS 2. F. When our bodies are at war within themselves unpredictably, over trivial matters & you must decide to play it as it lays or hedge for 48 hours perhaps.