You know just because I am not as good as others with making gifts for you does not mean I don't care. I thought I showed you in other ways that I Love You but I guess I was wrong once more or maybe it was not enough I don't know, if I will ever know or understand. I try not to ask things of you because I know you are busy but thought you would be able to spare a few minutes for me, I am sorry I asked for that. I am sorry that I have bothered you by talking to you when you are busy, but I do not always know. I am sorry that I have hurt you with my words tonight but I need to let this out before it completely destroys me and kills me . I am sorry the pain is so much but know of no other way seems all I know how to live in is pain. I will leave you now in peace and pray I don't need to post another.
