ok. ive never done a "blog" before but i feel the need to do one now. im single again and going on 4 months of the single life this time around. i treated that woman great so why did she go back to her abusive ex husband? i was too nice. that is what i have been told but quite a few people of both genders. how can you be too nice? but anyway, i am usually the shy kinda guy who never can think of a damn thing to say when approaching a female. i usually dont drink much either. well, if i do happen to drink i get a little braver as do all. great example was the other night at the bar. i went to have a couple drinks and play pool when my sister and her hubby showed up. my brother-in-law said i was gonna get drunk and for some crazy reason i said fuck it, lets drink. workin all the time and been single with no activity going on between the sheets for 4 long months i went for it. after about 4-5 beers i started talking. i went up to this one woman and told her i wanted the next dance when it was a slow song and she said ok. i cant dance but i was gonna give it a shot on the slow song. well, slow song came on and she had already got dragged out to the floor by an old guy. after the song i went up and told her i dont know what the hell happened there. the old man had quick reflexes and moved in like a cheetah. i said "i want the next one and ill beat the old man to ya next time". well, i had my attention elsewhere when all of a sudden i heard a slow song start. when i turned, old man moved in again. "shit!" what the hell. well, that kept up along with 2 other guys kept hovering around her. fuck it, i said. ok, theres this other girl here. she cought my eye and i was like "damn!" so i watched. she was sittin with other girls and she got asked by random few guys to dance. all who asked were older and she even was asked by the old d.j. so i thought she is the one i will ask now. she was available more than the other and she was sexier to. so i waited for the right moment. well, right moment passed and she was then sitting and talking with like 3 guys at one time. they would not leave her side. "oh shit now" theres 2 girls that just showed up and both look great but one is just sexy as hell. no guys standing with them at the moment. i watched as they got thier drinks and moved to the other end by the slot machines. i waited a few and then went for it. walked around to the other side and said to the one girl. "hey there, how are you? who are you here with" and she said "my husband" and i turned to him and said "hey, nice to meet you. im just mingling and seen you all caome in and wanted to say hi. ya'll have fun now" and walked away. ok, last one people, i promise. a short time later i seen this blonde walk in wearing a heinekin shirt. she was a knock out...or have i had too many to drink by this point. hell, she was hot and i know she was drunk or not. i asked her who shes with and she said her 2 guy friends. i talked with her for a while and her guy freind was there to cock block. every time i said something to her he had to make the light shining on him even brighter. this kept up for some time. i found that sh couldnt take compliments either. every time i said something to her that complimented her she would make it sound like it was horrible to be that way. how the hell is it bad to be a blonde with a beautiful smile and a body that fuckin rocked? ok, i have tried way to long with this girl and wasnt gonna accomplish shit. i decided to leave. now i know the bar scene aint the way to go when getting a girl but i cant do it out at walmart or the grocery store so i tried. i done the best i can and nothing. i dont know how to over come my fear or rejection or my shyness. i have really never been single for long periods of time. its always the woman asking me out. i want to pick one and make her mine just one time and see what its like. but i guess i can never do that so i will just sit back and wait for the next girl to ask me out. i wonder how much longer it will be this time around?!
