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What are you waiting for?

(Verse 1:) I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space (Chorus:) Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you (Verse 2:) I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind (Chorus) (Refrain:) And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made And like a baby boy I never was a man Until I saw your blue eyes crying and I held your face in my hand And then I fell down yelling “make it go away!†Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?†(Chorus)
In vein, I seek farther, the needle closer, the little end The world is watching as i take my last breath The world is watching as I get undressed Coz I'm pretty like drugs The world is watching as my wings unfurl The world is watching the death of a girl Coz I'm pretty like drugs I load the gun and I'm out of the world, and I take it harder, coz oh... pretty oh... pretty like drugs I load the gun The world is watching with a pregnant pause The world is watching as I fuck to applause The world is watching as I plant the last seed The world is watching me watching tv Coz I'm pretty like drugs I load the gun I wax and wane Subject all of my pain Onto you baby Coz I'm pretty like drugs
You let me violate you. You let me desecrate you. You let me penetrate you. You let me complicate you. Help me. I broke apart my insides. Help me. I've got no soul to sell. Help me. The only thing that works for me. Help me get away from myself. I wanna fuck you like an animal. I wanna feel you from the inside. I wanna fuck you like an animal. My whole existence is flawed. You get me closer to God. You can have my isolation. You can have the hate that it brings. You can have my absence of faith. You can have my everything. Help me. Tear down my reason. Help me. It's your sex I can smell. Help me. You make me perfect. Help me become somebody else. I wanna fuck you like an animal. I wanna feel you from the inside. I wanna fuck you like an animal. My whole existence is flawed. You get me closer to God. Through every forest. Above the trees. Within my stomach. Scraped off my knees. I drink the honey inside your hive. You are the reason I stay alive.
What if I wanted to break Laugh it all off in your face What would you do? What if I fell to the floor Couldn't take all this anymore What would you do, do, do? Kill Break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you What if I wanted to fight Beg for the rest of my life What would you do? You say you wanted more What are you waiting for I'm not running from you Kill Break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you I tried to be someone else But nothing seemed to change I know now, this is who I really am inside Falling from myself Falling for a chance I know now, this is who I really am Kill Break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you, you, you Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you Come, break me down Break me down Break me down What if I wanted to break...?

Alanis - Mary Jane

What's the matter Mary Jane, you had a hard day As you place the don't disturb sign on the door You lost your place in line again, what a pity You never seem to want to dance anymore It's a long way down On this roller coaster The last chance streetcar Went off the track And you're on it. I hear you're counting sheep again Mary Jane What's the point of trying to dream anymore I hear you're losing weight again Mary Jane Do you ever wonder who you're losing it for Well it's full speed baby In the wrong direction There's a few more bruises If that's the way You insist on heading Please be honest Mary Jane Are you happy Please don't censor your tears You're the sweet crusader And you're on your way You're the last great innocent And that's why I love you So take this moment Mary Jane and be selfish Worry not about the cars that go by All that matters Mary Jane is your freedom Keep warm my dear, keep dry Tell me Tell me What's the matter Mary Jane
The first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met And I knew that to you and into your life I had to get I felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger's hand An assault my defenses systematically fail to withstand 'Cause you came at a time When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall Was the be-all and end-all Love is only a feeling Drifting away When I'm in your arms I start believing It's here to stay But love is only a feeling Anyway Oh, the state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed That the light of my life Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by Just to beam on you and I Love is only a feeling Drifting away When I'm in your arms I start believing It's here to stay But love is only a feeling Anyway, anyway Love is only a feeling Drifting away And we've got to stop ourselves believing It's here to stay 'Cause love is only a feeling Anyway
I put a spell on you Because youre mine. I cant stand the things that you do. No, no, no, I aint lyin. no. I dont care if you dont want me cause Im yours, yours, yours anyhow. Yeah, Im yours, yours, yours. I love you. I love you. (repeat three times) Yeah! yeah! yeah! Yeah.... I put a spell on you. Lord! lord! lord! ....cause youre mine, yeah. I cant stand the things that you do When youre foolin around. I dont care if you dont want me. cause Im yours, yours, yours anyhow. Yeah, yours, yours, yours! I cant stand your foolin around. If I cant have you, No one will! I love you, you, you! I love you. I love you. I love you! I love you, you, you! I dont care if you dont want me. cause Im yours, yours, yours anyhow.
I still recall the taste of my tears. Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears. My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore. Scraping through my head till I dont want to sleep anymore. Come on tell me. Make this all go away. You make this all go away. Im down to just one thing. And Im starting to scare myself. Make this all go away. You make this all go way. I just want something. I just want something I can never have You always were the one to show me how Back then I couldnt do the things that I can do now. This is slowly take me apart. Grey would be the color if I had a heart. I just want something I can never have. In this place it seems like such a same. Though it all looks different now, I know its still the same Everywhere I look youre all I see. Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be. Come on tell me. Make this all go away. You make this all go away. Im down to just one thing. And Im starting to scare myself. Make this all go away. You make this all go way. I just want something. I just want something I can never have I just want something I can never have Think I know what you meant. That night on my bed. Still picking at this scab I wish you were dead. You sweet and perry ellis. Just stains on my sheets.

*Alanis - Forgive me Love*

I went to your house Walked up the stairs I opened your door without ringing a bell I walked down the hall Into your room Where I could smell you And I Shouldn't be here Without Permission Shouldn't be here Would you forgive me love If I danced in your shower Would you forgive me love If I laid in your bed Would you forgive me love If I stay all afternoon oh... I took off my clothes Put on your robe Went through your drawers and I found your cologne Went down to the den Found your CD's And I played your Johnny And I Shouldn't stay long You might be home soon I Shouldn't stay long Would you forgive me love If I danced in your shower Would you forgive me love If I laid in your bed Would you forgive me love If I stay all afternoon oh... I burned your incense I ran a bath I noticed a letter that sat on your desk It said hello love I love you so love Meet me at midnight And no It wasn't my writing I better go soon It wasn't my writing So forgive me love If I cry in your shower So forgive me love For the salt in your bed So forgive me love If I cry all afternoon oh...
I recommend just Listening to this song.. its in my playlist on my page. (Beating hearts baby) Baby is this love for real? (Beating hearts baby) Let me in your arms to feel (Beating hearts baby) The beating of your heart, baby (Beating hearts baby) The beating of your heart, baby You, you want nothing to do with me You, you want nothing to do with me I, I don't know what to do with you 'Cause you don't know what you do to me Baby is this love for real? Let me in your arms to feel The beating of your heart baby The beating of your heart, baby Baby is this love for real? Let me in your arms to feel Your beating heart baby, The beating of your heart baby Girl, you really got your hold on me Girl, you really got your hold on me Girl, you gotta get away from me 'Cause you want nothing to do with me Baby is this love for real? Let me in your arms to feel The beating of your heart baby, The beating of your heart baby Baby is this love for real? Let me in your arms to feel Your beating heart baby, The beating of your heart baby In spite of you Even out of view Still I love all of you I do, yeah In spite of you Even out of view Still I love all of you I do, yeah You, you want nothing to do with me You, you want nothing to do with me Baby is this love for real? Let me in your arms to feel Your beating heart baby, The beating of your heart baby Baby is this love for real? Let me in your arms to feel The beating of your heart baby, The beating of your heart baby Baby is this love for real? Let me in your arms to feel Your beating heart baby, The beating of your heart baby
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