Sometimes
As I sit here day in and day out I think back to older times. I know I shouldn't because it just brings back all the pain I've held onto. I try to forget, try not to think about you. Sometimetimes I sit someplace we shared laughs and try to remember the smell of your body close to me, the feel of your touch, the taste of your kisses, and the sound of your laughter. It seems so easy for you to forget those things. Do you see the tears in my eyes as you left as you did so often? Do you remember the sound of my voice as I said I Love You? Sometimes do you think about me? Do you remember the feel of my skin against yours? I know I should move on like you have but I remember you. I gave myself fully and you took me completely. You said you'd love me forever, I guess I was the only one who meant it. Maybe you will and just want me to think you don't to make it easier. Who does it make it easier for? Sometimes I remember how we were so long ago. All the pain we shared with one another. We held each other through it all and now I have noone to hold me. Sometimes I have someone I start to let close but then I get scared I'll be left behind with a crying heart again. I have been over this in my mind and heart so many times to try to figure out why you stopped loving me. What did I do wrong? What didn't I do anymore? You say it wasn't my fault but if you loved me before why don't you now? Why can't you answer that? Is it that hard to say? Are you worried you'll hurt me more? How can you? My heart has been bled already. Are you afraid I'll wanna die? I'm already there. Sometimes I think if I knew it would help keep it from happening again. Do you think about or want me back, even if it's SOMETIMES?
