Unfortunately lately I've slightly been in one of those moods. Most of the time I can tolerate the single life. I mean it's one of those things that you can't really force to change. Well I guess you could if you had no standards and were willing to date just anyone...but that's not me. I'm very picky about who I date. I've pretty much lost count of how long I've been single now. I've gone on dates but BS games came into play and it went nowhere.
Sometimes it sucks though. I look around and I see all of my friends from like high school are married with kids or getting married or at least in a serious relationship. It doesn't help that if I ever get married I'll have gotten married at the oldest age in my family but a good deal of years. My parents already 100% had a family by my age. In fact by my age they had 4 kids. All my brothers had been married for a few years or longer by my age. And yes I know I'm not them. But my point is when you grow up around things it's a bit harder to be that one who isn't the same. I'm already the only girl and now I'm the only one not married.
Yes I know all those sayings..."It'll happen when you're not looking..." "you'll find someone..." blah blah blah. Spare me please. Cause I've gone through times of not looking and still am living the single life so shush it! lol It's just deep down I'm one of those people who does want that special someone in my life to share everything with. The big things, the small things that other people would just shrug off. I want to have to make a relationship work. Eh...don't mind me. I'm just venting a bit.
