What is it ? what is wrong my emotions are so raw I can't get a hold of anyone. my life feels out of control I'm alone so alone i may do something stupid. I can't take the right medicine for my messed up emotions I'm trapped here. I can't fight this loneliness I feel. the tears the fact that i have no job I am returning to the person i was before. the time that i was left wondering why Chris didn't return my calls than the dreaded truth I hate him for what he did and how he did it it was the death of my heart . feel i don't have a enuff to give someone else I have no love no real love left inside. Why am i dwelling on this If i am so damn sexy If I am so damn nice Why am I alone why is everyone not here with me someone give me answers I can not stand to be alone no more I hate this feeling it scares me I know I would not hurt myself but I fear someday i will I can't control what will happen Why does my heart hurt so damn much am I in a panic yes YES I AM I hurt I hurt so bad IS it love i still feel for Chris I don't know all I know is I hurt still so much no matter how much It hurts.
