U ever want somethign so bad, that u do what ever poss to get, an it seem like no matter what you do, just cant seen to get it? Its seems liek life jsut threw a monkey wrench in the way that blocks everthing. Ppl say that anything can be done, if you work at it. Its true, but its jsut so hard you want to give up, give in. Best i can say is, just keep doin what ever ur doin, cuz there is a end to what ever it is. But if someone knows of a way that helpful, let me know :)