Twisted Desire FuMarried to Tuffy's blog: "Something I wrote......"

You took away my pride told me i could run but never hide. You torchered me and and broke my heart,you drive insane and tear me apart. I can't break away from these chains of burning steel,there just made to torcher they will never kill. I have nothing left in me to go on,all my chances to be someone are gone!

What is this place of anger and fear? What freedom of expression do I have but these silent tears behind closed doors? Blindly reaching throught the icy barriers of my mind I'm not sure what it is I am searching for So I just sit here in a room that is as dark and lonely as I am. Waiting for a light that will never come. Agony spoken without words These are my trophies of past wars This is my freedom of speech The blade is my control Sorrows hidden behind bleeding arms Comfort can be found here. There is no use for words They are meaningless How can they possibly express how I feel? Fear spoken without words Stories told with perfect pink lines on soft silky skin Such horror are found in these tales Tales of bleeding hearts and broken souls Of a child torn by a keep dark secret. Are the answers found hear? Here hidden beneath broken skin? I still want to see what is stalking me in the shadows Maybe there is some hidden fear in all this running away. Who is that desolate creature you choose to point and laught at? Realize it is yourselves you should be frowning at Frown at your ignorance and your simple little words...If so many know of this horror then why are we so alone? Now I'm in control Holding the mighty weapon of freedom Letting the ugliness escape the memories the pain the cries in the night that no one would listen to Another child lost in a world much too big for her Secrets spoken without words A message written in code and carved in skin On display for anyone who dares to take a look These beautiful lines talking of past wars fought I have died many times....I often wish I was blind to all of this so maybe I wouldn't know any better...

Please don't tell me not to cry. Please don't say there was a reason why. You don't know what I am feeling. Or how much I hurt. The wet spots are from the tears on my shirt. You think I should go on with my life. Forget about it and be strong. But, deep down I am sad and I don't want to go along. I don't expect you to understand why. For no apparent reason I break down and cry. My life has changed forever, you see Thats the reason I'm not acting like the same ol me. So, please dont act like nothing has happened Because it changed my life forever. I will never be the same again. Not today, Tomorrow, but never. The best thing you can do for me is just be there. Just like always my friend. My heart is broken and will never mend.