Okay i've never really written a blog...but here goes. As I sit watching the NFC Championship Game, which has turned out to be quite boring so far (except for Plaxico and Al Harris's occasional sissy-fighting) I feel like I need to get some random thoughts off of my chest. I don't know what my problem with women is these days but i've gotta figure it out. Whether its is a newfound lack of self-confidence, or my shyness...I seem to have a problem approaching women. Even if just to dance or something. I don't think i'm ugly....I get told differently every day. Girls tell me i'm good looking, great guy, great sense of humor, great dad, blah-blah-blah, blah-blah... I am the king of short changing myself. And when a girl blatantly flirts with me, I just smile and walk away. Just happy that somebody really notices me. Why can't I just be me? Maybe it's just not my time for some reason or other. Everything happen for a reason right? I really do want to have a relationship with someone but I never expect it. It's not like I am afraid of commitment. I just let things happen as they may. But lately I cant get over the hump of just breaking the ice. Maybe i'm scared of rejection or looking stupid. Why can't I just not care. I guess it is a good quality...kind of a blessing in disguise. I have alot to offer and i'm too shy to cheat lol. Actually i've never cheated on anyone when i've had the opportunity knowing that the satisfaction of having someone really love you is the best feeling that I could have. BTW: I would never compare the love for/from my two children. thats a whole other blog. Well anyways thats my (first) blog and something has gotta give...just sayin.
